[Shifted health stuff over to the Health Updates thread...]
Newish relationship news:
M and I really do travel well together. That's a delight.
Now he's asking if I'll go to Buenos Aires next August. My first impulse was jeez, gotta slow down. (And, I was sick on the way home for the second time.) But, I'm starting to rebound with a sense of adventure. This is just craaaaaaaaaaaaaaazy. If we keep it up, it's a LOT more than I'm used to. I hadn't been across the pond or out of the country (one business trip to Canada excepted) since '75.
Since I met M nine months ago, the travel picture has been:
Paris last summer
California just now
Costa Rica in Dec-Jan
[he also suggested London in June, I demurred but could change my mind]
Spain/Portugal in April
now, maybe, Buenos Aires in August
This feels normal to him (he gets paid trips paid because he a visiting lecturer, pays for my room and food and sometimes flight, if he forgets to use his FF miles)... but it's WACKY to me. And the dog/house-sitter is nibbling away at my anemic emergency fund.
Trying to get my head around all this jet setting. Speaking of which, carbon offsets don't do it, so there's the climate warming guilt.
Other R thing. I'm still trying to figure out whether M's constant talking is just an insecurity tic or is narcissistic. I'm spooked about the latter because my mother did that constantly and it cost me too much, and because of her I'm so well-groomed to fall in love with sparkly, self absorbed people. He behaves adoringly and then I notice that there is SO much I-I-I in his monologues, how rarely he actually tunes into me and how poorly he listens.
We've barely starting couples counseling, though. I need to be brave enough to ask the N-questions there. And despite sometimes feeling that he wants me as a companion largely because I'm smart, offer him good banter and good company...and he feels better about himself having an "attractive" woman....I also think in his own way he does love me.
It's a big conundrum and I have a fair amount of paranoia about it. So our work ain't done. He keeps proposing and I keep putting on the brakes. I just tell him, we have our work to do, still, first....
Just rambles. Thanks for listening to them.
love
Hops