Truthfully, I don't have that urge for male company, Hops.
I enjoy the company of DD's friends..... am happily training one in basic punching/footwork..... asked a different one to put together my vacuum and a Halloween prop yesterday...... I think that, and working with the contractor, has me topped off.
Honestly, the contractor and I spend so much time together, it feels like we're work husband and wife.
I didn't tell you guys, but we had a very weird night where his helper pulled out without notice on an upcoming job. Contractor drank a few glasses of wine around the fire pit ..... I just sat there and listened to him go round, verbally stating what sounded like internal dialogue and SHOULD have stayed internal.
The gist was....... his wife, his faithfulness and the fact he and I were never going to have sex,
though we had plenty of opportunity, was a fact in his life.....
and he was just looking ahead and I was being speechless, watching him babble......
then he looked at me, assumed I was...... maybe dissapointed? Or...... hurt, bc........ he looked dead at me and said....
"not that you aren't attractive. YOU ARE. It's just that I'm a faithful man and I'm going to write my wife love letters and send them from here."
Then he was quiet for a few beats, announced he was going to lie down and marched off the porch, thanks be to Jesus.
I'd had a really bad day, so I felt a combination of nausea and admiration.
Was he wildly innapropriate? Why, yes.... yes he was.
Has he brought it up again? No....he has not, though he did ask for a stamp to mail the first love letter.
I think he's a little horrified, and I get along super well with his wife and MIL. Better than I get along with him. He's got some work to do and has appointments set with my amazing Therapist. Lucky duck.
I know this..... i won't be speechless if he has a moment again. And it's an amazing, calm, kind knowing I'll put an end to foolishness I don't have to endure, bc I can end it.
Lighter