Why do we feel so guilty over NC?

[JustKathy]

and if my FOO-members can't handle the truth -- OH WELL.

You know Phoenix, you make a darn good point with this. Why should we care?

My original name on this site was poozybear, something that I chose without even thinking about it. When the Internet first came into my home 15+ years ago, that was the name of the dog I had, so I used it for my email address, and continued to use it on any site that asked for a nickname. I though it would be a good idea to have a recognizable monikor to use on all sites, as I do a lot of business online. For that purpose, it's served me well. If you search the name you'll find my eBay listings, Zazzle shops, Etsy shop, and anything else I have going on. BUT, one day I googled myself, and that's when I saw some posts from this group.

At the time, I freaked, but in hindsight, why did I? Maybe it was the initial shock of realizing that my "therapy" was available to the public. Now, after reading your comment, yeah, I agree. Why should I care if NM, or anyone else, knows that I'm talking about the things she did to me? It's not like I'm making up stories. She DID commit all of the sadistic acts that I've discussed here. Bottom line, if you don't want your child discussing the fact that they were abused, then don't abuse your child. So from this day forward, I don't give a hooey what she sees or hears. So there! 

[sKePTiKal]

Hey, Kathy... sounds like a plan!

Ya know, (just thinking out loud here; musing) I think we children of Ns... sometimes... get into these habits of "overcaring". (Yeah, there I go generalizing again...) What I mean, is we care more about "caring type" type things... because it's like we're trying to fill the container of "caring" up to what is considered a "normal" level.......

.... to make up for the lack of caring that surrounds an N, like a black hole. Sometimes, we get sucked into the black hole no matter how much caring we can generate (even if - maybe, "when" - that caring comes in the form of self-defensive anger and outrage).

I just saw the Star Trek prequel - when Spock and Kirk were "kids"... and supposedly the first time the crew were totally together on the Enterprise... and they were about be sucked into a black hole generated by the explosion of the Romulan death-ship...

and Kirk was talking to Scotty... "We need more power!! Get us out of here, Scotty!"

and he comes back for the first time with: "I'm giein' her all she's got Cap'n!!"

and the Enterprise slingshots away from the black hole at warp-speed.

My right-brain self sees a parallel association there, with the "caring" and N-black holes. Can't put that into words... but maybe you'll get it from word-picture anyway.