Just checking in quickly as something happened today. I saw my step-dad, the man who abused me, the man who my mum has lied to protect, the man who for years has been a big, scary presence in my life, even after I stopped having anything to do with them and didn't see or speak to them any more. Today was the first day I've seen him for about five years and he is no longer a big, muscular, scary bloke. He looks very old, very frail, very tired and like he probably only has a couple of years left on this earth. I gasped when I realised it was him, it was such a shock to see him as he really is now when in my mind he's still this terrifying man towering over me. He looks so frail, all the fear just left me, I felt it going and I couldn't help but smile to myself. It was a really odd moment (although odd in a good way). He's gone. I really feel like he's gone. I wanted to share, I'm hoping these good moments give hope to those who are struggling with things at times. Lots of love, thank you all for being there, Tup xxxxx
