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Twoapenny:
Hi all, and thank you :)

I've noticed several things since that day - whether they're connected to this or not I'm not sure?

I don't feel the need to stuff my face constantly.  I do try and eat healthy but I have to really work at it and be really strict on myself.  This last week I've not felt the same need to be constantly full and doing something.  Maybe this was to do with being afraid?

I also feel kind of flat and empty.  Not depressed or sad, but almost like I don't need to run any more and I'm not really used to it?

I've realised that I do not want to be frail and ill when I'm old.  I know sometimes it's unavoidable, but I'm going to do my best to keep fit and healthy and be nice to people along the way - I don't want someone to look at me if I'm old and in poor health and be glad that I'm not doing well.  I feel a little guilty for feeling good that he feels bad (or at least looks like he does).  But when I think back to how much he hurt me and how small and defenceless I was - there was no excuse for what he did.  Bad, bad, bad.

Just my thoughts.

Tup xx

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