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SallyingForth:


--- Quote from: Ales2 on June 20, 2013, 06:46:48 PM ---Hi SallyForth,

Reading your posts, I am wondering if any of these crimes are unsolved. If you can remember the jurisdiction where the boys were killed, could you contact the Police Department there and offer them the memories you have of the crime? Its very possible that your information might validate some of their old case files (Im guessing this is 50 years ago, if this occurred when you were 10 and you are now 60) or provide new information. Matching information might prove to be self validating for you - that the memories have value and possibly someone seeing what you know or experienced might be healing.

Its also possible that there is some assistance available through reporting more of the crimes you witnessed, certainly meeting some professionals who have an understanding of these incidents/crimes.

Your post is tough to read, so I must send you my best wishes for happiness and peace in your life, I cant imagine what you went through. My experiences with an NMother sound like a whining baby compared to you.   All the best to you,

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Yes, Ales, I hoped to get some closure as well as bring closure to others through reporting the crimes to the police. I provided the report to a requesting officer. The investigation is considered a cold case. There are about 12 people ahead of me trying to enlist the police's help with their missing persons or cold cases. The officer told me they go case by case and said it might take years before they get to my case.  :shock:

All the boys my father killed were homeless.

I was homeless for a short time and felt intense terror during it. I was afraid to go to sleep at night believing someone was going to kidnap me. I had no idea who. It was a huge fear.

My father kidnapped homeless boys while I was with him. I was 10 and remember how he carried out the kidnap. When I was three he left me with someone while he "hunted" for his prey.


--- Quote from: Twoapenny on June 21, 2013, 04:02:12 AM ---Hi again, Sally,

My thoughts were the same as Ales, there would be records of these things, even if only missing persons reports at this stage?  The police should be able to help; if all they establish is that your father is definitely dead that might bring some peace to some of his victims?  They may have specialists who can help you as well, or at least be able to put you in touch with people?

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I am seeing a psychiatrist next month and I hope he can be of some help. I do not believe the police have resources for therapists who deal with this type of abuse and the eyewitnessing of crimes at such a young age. When I first started therapy my PTSD was extreme and I could not function. I had low level PTSD since I was 10 until an incident in 1988 boosted it to an extreme level. The first therapist I saw told me my PTSD was the worst she had seen in her practice.

Up until this month I had no name for my father. I am not 100% certain of his name. I just know what he used to call himself. He purposely used numerous names to confuse me and to keep his identity a secret. Also, when one is a child they don't call their dad by his first and last name. I came upon his name by accident (I don't believe in accidents though), through the most unusual way, and when I saw the name I knew it was his.

fraidycat:
Sallyingforth when I read your post my heart absolutely broke for you. I wish I had good advice that would help, I can't think of anything that hasn't been said. It sounds like you are doing everything you can for yourself and the families. Lots of good advice from the kind people here on the board. I don't have much to offer but please know that if you need a friend to talk to you can private message me anytime. My best to you.

Kat

Hopalong:
(((((Sally))))

What a terrifying legacy.
I hope you find wise, grounded support to help you continue healing from your PTSD, and taking whatever steps are important and suited to this emotionally difficult situation.

Most of all, I hope you shed any sense that you could have prevented, saved, offset, compensated for, fixed, or stopped the madness, whatever form it took.

I hope if law enforcement can, they will help you find realities and resolutions, and if they can't, that you'll know it's no longer your burden to bear.

love
Hops

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