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My brother and just life and stuff
Meh:
There were two facebook accounts that I had set up over the years, and never used them really, they only existed so I could log in and stock other people's Facebooks :P
So my email got msgs from one of the accounts but I always treated it like spam and totally ignored it
Tonight I pulled up my emails and saw that it was an old account that my brother had friend requested. Of course I feel a little guilty that I never accepted it.
I accepted it and looked at his facebook account. I posted a photo of him and me when we were kids on his facebook page.
Feels like a time warp like I am 3 yrs old and 10 yrs old and 20 years old and 100 years old all at the same time.
Not sure what I am trying to say here. I'm not stuck on it, I don't think about it constantly but I never really got to talk to anybody about it.
I texted his best friend occasionally IDK
I feel like I never got to talk it out enough or something. I also still have no contact with my nephews which maybe doesn't matter to anybody I don't know.
Hopalong:
I'm so glad you found that FB account.
I hope you'll meet with your brother's friend sometime.
I can't think why this isn't an excellent place to wail, kvetch, grieve,
and verbalize anything at all.
And I get it -- 10% of nothing. He is very motivating, though.
Might be other/additional ways to earn money that would start
you up and onward. You can always go watch the videos (that's
how they start the classes...and they're really good, psychologically.)
I am not anything like Dave Ramsey politically or religiously,
but for some reason, I found he REALLY motivated me about $$.
Good luck and of course you're still grieving...ever checked out
going to a bereavement group? Exactly what they're for.
Hops
Meh:
(hi Hops)
It snowed here last night between me commuting home and then a couple hours later opened the door and there was a fresh layer of snow on the roofs, trees, and shrubs.
On of my roommates from Arizona just zoomed off in his car to get groceries. I hope he knows to go slow and not slam on the brakes etc.
I had a log of goat cheese in the fridge so that is my breakfast :P
I'm still waking up having my first cup of coffee.
Last night one of my co-workers that I had hoped we could just be friends told me he was attracted to me via email. (not the manager, a different person)
Sigh. I literally told him : "Dude, you are in my friendzone"........ because hey he needed a direct answer so I figured that was direct.
Meh:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=B7UmUX68KtE
Meh:
Today is my day off of work because I work on Saturdays. Yep I get to have days off. This morning around 9 AM my roommate decided that she would knock on the door to my room and try to open the door for some hard to comprehend reason. I was awake but still laying in bed and obviously not dressed nor ready to contemplate her bizarre plans for disturbing me.
It obviously is not an emergency the house is not burning down. Why she doesn't go to work until after 8 AM and arrives home before 5 PM yet has massive financial needs and debts.... really doesn't make sense to myself and my other roommate who doubt that she has any job at all. Why she decides that for some reason she needs to get inside of my room also is not comprehensible.
Luckily I had stuff in front of the door. :) See I am not so paranoid after all.
I'm beyond annoyed and uncomfortable. I'm really too old to live like this. It always just seems like some kind of f'ed up problem.
Sigh.
Okay what is that saying "STAY CALM AND CARRY ON" Clearly I need to keep on moving on moving on moving on etc. etc.
I'm so aware of this city time clock feeling of hurry hurry hurry, anxiety and I wish I had more real motivation to get stuff done that I need to do.
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