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Hopalong:
Hope you had a good day off Boat, and maybe
even got your fingers in some DIRT.

:)
Hops

Meh:
Well I have pinched oregano from my roomies front patch that is going wild if that counts... Oh I did go to an art gallery on may day off... after I completed the dentist visit that involved 4 fillings, a broken tooth and blood  :x hence the day off.

But the art was truly good.  :D   !!! I heart art.   Who knew a farm ditch in a misty landscape rendered in oil is my kinda bandaid... and now an evening of ice cream and beer.

How are you?

Hopalong:
Art YES!
About those watercolors, or that painting class........

I'm doing fine. Survived a "retreat" at Nboss' home that I
was apprehensive about. Love my technique of stuffing
earplugs all the way into my brain so I CAN'T HEAR his
hypnotic guru-mind-control "guided meditations" we
have to sit through each time, and which I'm violently
opposed to having imposed on us. And they end with
ohhhhhhhhmmmmmmmmmmm which is fine if you
like it but I consider that a virtual prayer and I don't
meditate on demand in the workplace, but only voluntarily,
hence my personal passive resistance, which I relish.

Otherwise, though, I contributed well and calmly.
Over-caffeinated today so he barked at me for
interrupting (exaggerating it) but I know that's
actually because I had said NO at the end of the
retreat when he proposed an even-more-invasive
trust-building process between me and the abusive
Pman, which Nboss intends to lead "as though he
were a therapist" and mentioned how intimate, emotional
and "hard core work" it would be.

I amazed myself by calmly saying, "I am opposed to this
idea because I do not want to think of you as my therapist,
you are my BOSS. And I am concerned that it would be
very invasive. If there were a professional therapist
facilitator I'd be open to it, but otherwise I think there's
a danger that any toxic dynamic would just be perpetuated
in a kind of closed family system."

And then he shut up and looked utterly shocked and I
went home very proud of myself. I am DAMNED if I
will cooperate with any "emotionally naked" exercise
with me and the bully who's tried to damage me for
seven years, that is led by Nboss himself (whose
enabling and sexism is part of why the pattern
festered in the first place).

Very risky in a way because I know, and he knows I
know, that I am not being a submissive "disciple" (aka
employee) -- but that's where I am and I felt proud
that I said what I thought and protected myself.

Thanks for asking!
Hops

Meh:
Heck YAAAAA Goooo Hops!!!!!!! WOW you did it :)   I am laughing and saying "hell ...yaaa" out loud while I read what you wrote.

This situation you are describing is just on another plane... kind of mind boggling

 N-coworkers and bosses are bad enough but add on them playing make believe guru crap.. Oy veh

I am glad you feel proud and protected. Those are the good moments.

Well fuck being employed does not = a follower of a guru   sheesh...   funny business this is .

but yah it feels risky too I get that

Meh:
My relatives are all on facebook, all connected to each other somehow, they know what is going on in each other's lives, they ask and listen to each other about what is important.

The aunt and the mother who are "besties"

My newphews, grandparents etc.

I guess they all want to keep in touch with each other.

Roll eyes I don't even feel like writing. Kind of at a loss as to what to say or feel. So off of this site at the moment.

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