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Meh:
Well it's Mother's Day of course. Today at work my customers asked me if I was a mother etc. and then they wished me a happy Holiday anyhow.
Got my fingers and toes painted yesterday. I was getting too lazy and maybe depressed. Figured it would make me feel a tid bit more civilized.
I matched the polish colors to pink and purple Rhododendrons.
Of course I felt some guilt at not contacting my mother but it is hard to know what to say or do any longer. Any nice thing I could ever have done for her doesn't equate a relationship with her. So that is old news.
Current news is that I am eating a hot dog and beer and should go to bed soon because more work for Monday.
Yah nothin' at all going on around here. I always felt this way in the cityscape more invisible.
At work it was so quiet that I did something I am not supposed to do and came up with a list of possible summer reading. The list is in a brown lunch bag with a can of pea soup. Going to grab it.
The Light Between Oceans
Falling into You
Toxic Deception
Gilead
Lords of Finance
Gulag
And a handful of others :) If only my eyeballs will hold up maybe this will happen.
I worked until 7 PM and now it is almost 10... feh. this is going to be a drop into bed evening.
Twoapenny:
--- Quote from: Garbanzo on May 12, 2014, 12:36:04 AM ---Well it's Mother's Day of course. Today at work my customers asked me if I was a mother etc. and then they wished me a happy Holiday anyhow.
Got my fingers and toes painted yesterday. I was getting too lazy and maybe depressed. Figured it would make me feel a tid bit more civilized.
I matched the polish colors to pink and purple Rhododendrons.
Of course I felt some guilt at not contacting my mother but it is hard to know what to say or do any longer. Any nice thing I could ever have done for her doesn't equate a relationship with her. So that is old news.
Current news is that I am eating a hot dog and beer and should go to bed soon because more work for Monday.
Yah nothin' at all going on around here. I always felt this way in the cityscape more invisible.
At work it was so quiet that I did something I am not supposed to do and came up with a list of possible summer reading. The list is in a brown lunch bag with a can of pea soup. Going to grab it.
The Light Between Oceans
Falling into You
Toxic Deception
Gilead
Lords of Finance
Gulag
And a handful of others :) If only my eyeballs will hold up maybe this will happen.
I worked until 7 PM and now it is almost 10... feh. this is going to be a drop into bed evening.
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Hey G,
Your nail polish sounds fab :)
I've found the Mother's Day/Birthday/Christmas thing has got easier over the years. One thing that helps me is to keep in mind that it is something that's been commercially created to get everyone to spend some money. So even if I were in contact with my mum I don't think I'd make a big deal of it. I find I feel better if I do something nice for someone else on those sort of days - takes my attention off of the way I feel for a while. At Christmas I put together little hampers for elderly people in the area who are alone. Nothing expensive, just little good gifts, because I don't have a mum to buy a present for so it makes me feel better that someone else is having their day improved a little, you know? Mother's Day this year, I took my son to see a film (his choice) and then we sat by the river drinking hot chocolate.
I hope you slept well. It's another tough day out of the way, it might be a little easier when it comes around next year. Either way, at least you have fabulous nails to show for it :) xx
Meh:
--- Quote from: Twoapenny on May 12, 2014, 02:32:25 AM ---
Hey G,
Your nail polish sounds fab :)
I've found the Mother's Day/Birthday/Christmas thing has got easier over the years. One thing that helps me is to keep in mind that it is something that's been commercially created to get everyone to spend some money. So even if I were in contact with my mum I don't think I'd make a big deal of it. I find I feel better if I do something nice for someone else on those sort of days - takes my attention off of the way I feel for a while. At Christmas I put together little hampers for elderly people in the area who are alone. Nothing expensive, just little good gifts, because I don't have a mum to buy a present for so it makes me feel better that someone else is having their day improved a little, you know? Mother's Day this year, I took my son to see a film (his choice) and then we sat by the river drinking hot chocolate.
I hope you slept well. It's another tough day out of the way, it might be a little easier when it comes around next year. Either way, at least you have fabulous nails to show for it :) xx
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:P Breathe!! Thanks for reminding me of the nails. So far so good, polish is still on :)
What movie did you two end up watching?
Drinking hot chocolate by a river sounds good to me. Sounds like quality time together.
Meh:
Was offered a slight raise today, talking peanuts really. $1.00 hour raise.
Accepting the offer would mean that the location of my work space would move to another side of the building that has a few issues. The air-conditioning messes up over there and it gets over-heated sometimes. There are more internal customers to deal with that are associated with the head corporation and when something goes up the chain of command it typically results in company wide rumors of a problem. The seating arrangement faces inward instead of out any windows. In towards the managers desks which makes it feel like a class room type setting almost. It is a bit more tightly packed together. I told them that I would be happy to be trained but that I do not want to move so I think I have declined it. They could simply have calls come over to me. It is more of a technical situation.
Right now I face a wall with a window and I prefer this. The raise seems like piddly squat though I guess I should consider it some more. They also just demoted somebody off of that team.... right now I feel cool with not being highly scrutinized. The first months that I worked on the job were under heavy scrutiny. Now the manager I have is pretty good. The other side of the building would be some managers that I am not entirely excited about.
Hopalong:
Tough call.
Adequate (barely) income vs being able to see nature outside a window (instead of a stall).
Ouch.
If the income boost would get you closer to something else that keeps your spirit alive, maybe worth it. But if you're more present-focused and you know what losing a window would cost you, I hear that too.
I had a semi-opportunity for an office change and turned it down because where I am, there is natural light.
I get it. (Then again, my change wasn't attached to a promotion or raise--which makes it a harder decision.)
Good luck with this--whichever you decide, that's going to be what's right for you at this time, I think.
xo
Hops
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