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moonlight60:
Hi Everyone....

I have been away.... In that time I have found compassion for everyone in my family...only took me 60 years to pick up every stitch. Sometimes I think well this is not what I signed up for...well maybe I did ...somehow...learned a lot....My blaming others for my feelings is over....If only I could learn to turn that understanding and love towards myself now !!!!!...lots of details to "my story" ...The biggest one is my oldest daughter is married and has been for three years...also I am first time Grammie My grand-daughter is 8 weeks old and "cute as a Betsy bug" as my southern Momma used to say....Mr. Moon and I are over the Moon...lol ...

I have missed everyone here ...and have read VESM weekly....

Love and Light to All

Thanks Dr.G ...for everything you do .

Moonlight60

mudpuppy:
Nice to hear from you Moon and thank you for what you said about my girl over on the other thread.

mud

Sela:
It is good to look in and see your post Moon. 

Your words got me thinking of how time passes and things change and we either change too…..how we see things…..how we react……..or not.

Well, I should say….how I see and react because, ofcourse, I can't speak for anyone else but when I read what you said about it taking 60 years…..

Yep……it's taken me a long, long time too…..I love how you put it……"to pick up every stitch".   I think I may have missed a few and there are definite
errors that maybe are not that noticeable but that I know are there.   Ok.  I'm really on a roll here now:  It's a piece of work eh?  This living.


I'm glad your life sounds like it's working out just fine and oh…..isn't it wonderful to be a granny?  It's nice to think of you and Mr. Moon way up there…..over the moon!!!

You always bring a smile to my heart, Moon.   :)

Sela

moonlight60:
Dear Sela

Back around full circle moon without fear....

Well maybe not every stitch.....but the big ones....finally there is compassion a love between my father and I...I am very lucky he lived to be 90 and he is  sharp as ever....I feel grateful for everything..."good & bad"...and sorta managed to place my arms around both in an embrace....no resistance....What really, really  helped  me was I went to a different Doctor ...that treats P.T.S.D. ...it is not just combat that can cause P.T.S.D....She said I am not bipolar but suffered P.T.S.D. from childhood experiences and my twin's sudden death...she used  Cognitive behavioral therapy (CBT) and Eye Movement Desensitization and Reprocessing (EMDR) can also help to reprogram brain circuitry so that patients can recall traumatic events with less emotional resonance...It was wonderful (and hard work) and let me see that the trauma I have experienced was just sad for everyone...and led me to an epiphany ...a release of "old stuff " and the ability to see myself in others more deeply.....work in progress...finally jumped the big one......the biggest hurdle was compassion for Dad...finally it is real....something I have always wanted even when I seemed the most hurt...from believing he did not love me... to now seeing he does....that is the Miracle we both have wanted and could never quite manage....My dearest Momma would have been proud...well maybe she is ......


so much love and then more....blessings to you...and LOVE never fails....<3 love and light.......a grateful Moon

moonlight60:
Dear Sela...


P.S.   
  What I forgot to say is I am now trying hard to forgive myself...for my screw ups ...and there were plenty...getting on in years  to cause too much trouble....forgiving my self is what I want to do ...that lets you love others even bigger....well anyway I sure am no saint...just ask Mr. Moon....he says he puts up with me because I am not boring...My Momma told me never be boring...so there is my saving grace...I guess????? hahahahah lol

Love to you ...do you still like to ride your motorcycle on trips ????
love never fails...My oldest daughter said I went into a 5 year Cocoon and came out "the love bomb" she's so funny !!!!!

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