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moonlight60:
Dearest Sela......

 Yes when my twin passed I experienced...no self state...it was long ago ..but I do miss him so....but he is with me always ...in my "heart pocket".
I did not know our experience was similar......It was a great loss......but we loved each other so very much ...that I am grateful to have experienced
so much love...


Love you thank you for your kindness and understanding...

Moon

Sela:
Well Moon,

They say it's better to have loved and lost than never to have loved at all.

Yep.  The value of loving, feeling love, feeling loved is priceless and precious.

Something not easily forgotten either  eh?  Good thing to carry in your "heart pocket" Moon!

 :)

Sela

moonlight60:
Sela....

Yes...the love...is there...when he passed it was then I learned ...
to say I LOVE YOU.....often..as I could.
And not easily forgotten .....
Love never fails...

moon
:)

Izzy_*now*:

--- Quote from: moonlight60 on January 23, 2014, 12:42:40 PM ---finally there is compassion... a love... I feel grateful for everything..."good & bad"...and sorta managed to place my arms around both in an embrace....no resistance....What really, really  helped  me was I went to a different Doctor ...that treats P.T.S.D. ...it is not just combat that can cause P.T.S.D....She said I am not bipolar but suffered P.T.S.D. from childhood experiences and my twin's sudden death...she used  Cognitive behavioral therapy (CBT) and Eye Movement Desensitization and Reprocessing (EMDR) can also help to reprogram brain circuitry so that patients can recall traumatic events with less emotional resonance...It was wonderful (and hard work) and let me see that the trauma I have experienced was just sad for everyone...and led me to an epiphany ...a release of "old stuff " and the ability to see myself in others more deeply.....work in progress...
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Hiya moonlight,

This is exactly what I have needed, as I have learned on my own that I have been traumatized since childhood, both emotionally and physically, but no one had diagnosed anything  in me, and in particular, not PTSD.

I never held out any hope that my life could be normal. Now I am 75 (in April) with basically no family: just a few new friends, 2000 miles from what used to be home. I guess i just ran away to start over.......but I ran away with an, unknown to me, Narcissist.

What you now present regarding your healing still seems out of reach for me, but I live a different life now....no close sibling ties, and no contact with daughter and 3 grandchildren.

Part of me was left behind in the many songs I wrote in the years after 1991. I have shared the lyrics of 3 of them with a nice woman I met in Rehab here, and she, plus her husband and daughter, are gripped in the heart by these lyrics. I've never had that reaction from the principals involved with the demos of them, or my family or friends. I soon kept them all to myself. I have about 200 songs, so I intend, when I get home, to go back over them and see "Who really wrote them"............... if you catch  my drift!

I'll follow up on this when I am in better position at home.

Love
Izzy

moonlight60:
Hiya  Izzy....

Yes the process of EMDR...worked for me...gently it lets you "see" images of past trauma without the usual emotional pain that is

associated with the trauma....There are many methods used ...the one my Doctor used was a head phone that played music of
my choice and the sound flashes in one ear then the other back and forth....I was quickly hypnotized...then the work began as
pictures of past painful memories were relived without emotional pain...sort looking as an observer....and I worked on everything

starting at birth until 60 my Doctor asked questions and helped me to see with compassionate eyes....it only took 1 year...and I was so much better...underneath the pain was my real self...It was a lifetime of stuff not processed...this is used for Vets...but anyone that has suffered trauma can be relieved of emotional pain.....I believe.

Hope you are feeling better soon!!!!

Love,
moon

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