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Still need to work through early trauma
Ales2:
Im feeling so much better today, like night and day. So EMPOWERED today, I feel physically better and my negative thoughts change so much...
Of course after I posted yesterday, I get a disturbing NM call, almost threatening me, asking me questions about a visiting cousin and some inheritance remark she claims I said. I don't remember it and its not something I would say, but the feelings behind it were true. Just more manipulation and gaslighting. Lucky for me one of horoscopes said stay honest and avoid emotional blackmail...which I do anyway, but it was helpful to know that it might be coming.
Have a great day everybody, mine will probably be OK today..
And pray I get an interview for this job I applied for.... a new job is my Christmas wish...
Gaining Strength:
Ales - we must be twins. Boy do I hate it. I am beginning to believe that while our emotions effect our brains and our brains can affect our emotions there is a way to make things better by changing the brain directly.. I may not be making sense but anyway, the point I'm making is that I am not so hard on myself because of what I haven't gotten done. With my little brain stimulator I get just enough relief for just long enough to be able to get a few things done that otherwise would just be left.
Oh well. My own post is boring me to death so I'll just leave it with this last thought. The dominant feeling of doom and reluctance to move forward may come out of my emotional reaction to experiences but now I see that repairing the wiring in my brain can really make a difference.
Gaining Strength:
How crazy is that? You felt much better and even when your NM called stirring things up you didn't crash. That's great! So glad for you.
Hate the BS stuff about what she was stirring up. Really hate that you aren't sure whether your cousin would have said that or not.
Gaining Strength:
Just checking in.
Gaining Strength:
So thankful that I have had two days of pushing through resistance and getting things done. If I am able to function on this level or higher I can definitely break through.
Day by day I am seeing progress is shifting my thoughts and perspective, becoming continually more aware of unconscious thoughts that trigger painful feelings of shame, anxiety and depression attached to profound condemnation and expectation of failure and rejection.
Making progress.
Listening to a fascinating segment on a Radio Lad about learned Paralysis and healing by tricking the brain.
I am discovering more science weekly that supports this way of healing.
So thankful.
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