Hi everyone,
I just wanted to pop in and say hello--feel as though I've been neglecting my friends!
I am so grateful spring is finally here. I'm not done complaining about the past winter
yet,
but it's easier because now there's a contrast!
I'm generally doing better these days. Had a two-week break that was just heaven. For the
first time in a long time, my vacation was all about visiting old friends, who made me feel
welcome in two cities. Also spent time in a barn, around pretty horses, took walks, and learned
Exactly How Much Interstate my pooch is willing to tolerate. (Held up well with huge trucks
and weird pavement and quick stops at rest areas until on the last day she planted her feet
in the parking lot of the B&B, gave me this "You have BETRAYED me" look, and refused to
get in the car. Had to stop for antihistamine tabs at a truck stop and dope her up for the
home stretch, poor thing.) But she was funny, plucky and wonderful company the whole
rest of the trip. Loved the people she met and even survived meeting her first horses.
Two "cur dogs" on a friend's farm made it clear she was snack-sized, but other than them,
she had a really nice time.
It was a meaningful trip back to the city where I'd met my D's father, and I even caught
up with his sisters. Let them know a little bit about the estrangement, just so they'd be in
the loop if anything happened to me. They were very sweet and had me come for lunch.
Other than that it was in Appalachian states which are spectacular in spring.
Came home to get a huge cold so I've been out of commission for a few days but am
back at work now and feeling a lot more alive.
Hmm, what else. Had quite a moment with my counselor where I uncovered some
family sadness but also, and surprisingly, a flash of sorrow and compassion for my
brother. I was glad to feel that. (No reconciliation, he's unsafe...but I was glad to tune
into compassion for him. He is a tortured, brutal soul.)
Very distressed about a lot of the news, but am trying to not wallow there. Work is
just what it is, Nboss the same, and I am trying to just enjoy my tasks that I do enjoy
and as to the rest...to Let It Go.
Love to all,
Hops
