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My nephews 10 and 12 are visiting from out of state

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Meh:
Well I got through my first Tues/Weds night and Thursday with my nephews. It was as fun as it could possibly be with my mother complaining constantly about everything.

I went back to work today and am exhausted I think it may in part be due to a heat wave.

She got drunk one night and was being really unpleasant but somehow I survived it and I think the kids had some moments of fun for whatever its worth.

I bought a bunch of fireworks. One of them was huge and it went straight up into the air a lot higher and bigger than I had expected. Just today there was a burn ban announced so I guess I got lucky with that. The four of us, my two nephews and my drunk mother and myself went down to a small secluded beach and I lit them off.
Oddly my drunk narcissistic mother seemed to enjoy it the most. 

We did some other things as well just so the kids could do some things they haven't done before.

Hopalong:
SOOOOOOOOO glad it went well, Boat!

And so ironic that drunken Nmom enjoyed it most.
N-parents never really grow up, since they're emotionally arrested, imo...

But great that it worked to defang her long enough so that you could
enjoy being an aunt!

BRAVO to you for your determination to create a happy memory.
AND YOU DID.

Yay, you!

love
Hops

Meh:
Well they left last Saturday got on the plane back home  :(

i got to go fishing with them etc. We caught a little fish it was a type of sunfish I think a pumpkin seed  lol  just a little bugger but at least we caught something. Larger fish would have required a bigger fishing pole really as there was a guy who caught a pretty decent sized trout with a line casted out into deeper water.

Should not admit this but I cried on my bus ride home on the last day that I saw them. Kinda of extreme I guess but it makes me feel sad that I dont have relatives near by that feel like "friends and family"

Just got home from work and put some pork ribs in oven will see how it comes out its always a surprise. Sat down with a bottle of beer and kind of feeling more aware of being lonely than before my nephews came.

Over all it was decent, no major arguments or anything with my mother just one annoying night of her acting drunk and shitty but besides that it was okay. So here I am sort of alone again basically. I like to have some quiet time and breathing room so I can hear myself think but really I would prefer to have people around over this kind of defaulting-to-solitude- mode.

Meh:
@ Hops... Awww you always have something nice to say Hops. Thanks!!!

Yes I am very glad I got to see them, I only wish that they could have stayed longer or that I had the ability to have them over at my place so I could have taken them to do things in the city more but it just didn't turn out that way.

So whats going on with you?

Hopalong:
Your tears on the bus made perfect sense to me, Boat.
Sad as it felt, that sorrow is real and needed releasing.

I'm one of those people who has no family too. No functioning
family that I can see or talk to. So I have wept too.

All I can see for warmth and hope in my life and future is
PHamily--the friends I've made through various small group
things I've done. That's how I met most of the few folks I am
now close to and probably always will be. They're the PHamily.

Every one needs one.

I'm okay. Fresh wave of sorrow over my daughter lately.
Talked it out with friends and T and I'm moving on. Been
slow to garden or do much of anything since my trip, but
it's still beautiful summer here. Things bloom around me
whether they're my blooms or not...

hugs
Hops

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