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Hopalong:
Well, I'm interested because you work in a customer service center and that's hard work.
And all the other cubicle and corporate things...

And I worry when you get upset about work and don't have other connections/fulfilling things arranged for yourself.

Because of where you were in your life before this job.

And I worry that if you allow yourself to get angry about work too much and show it on the job you might indeed lose the job and then I will worry about you being homeless again.

So I want you to have a group or two you do positive, spirit-feeding things with outside of work.
I want you to do art (with others) and to garden (with others) so you no longer feel like a Martian.

Because you're not. You're smart, creative, and frustrated (the latter being a frequent result of the first two) and you need some organizing happiness sources, and peace.

I think it does all come more readily with time but economic straits make it all a lot harder. Other people can make everything harder but other people can also make everything more beautiful.

Hops

Meh:
Our power went off yesterday. So wheeeeeeeeeee I got to leave work early!!!! before pitch blackness and rush hour traffic combined turning into a nightmare.

So I ate chips and salsa by candle light and then I went to bed at 6:30 PM   Yayyyyyyyyy!!!!!!!    That sleep I have been wanting for such a long time.

Then I woke up around 1200 AM and couldn't go back to sleep. Booooooooooooo!!!!!!

Then I laid their and I guess I eventually went back to sleep. Woke up for work. Called in and the phone line was dead Yayyyyyyyyy!!!!!!!!!

Called my co-worker friend who drove to work and she said there was a sign on the door saying the business was closed today YAYYYYYY!!!!!!!!!

Got a call after 12:00 PM today where my jerk manager was asking me to come in to work if it was convenient for me.  BOOOOOOOOO

Stayed home. YAYYYYYYYY

Guilt of staying home BOOOOOOO

The thought that my employer might be sadly understaffed today. Bwaaaaa HAaaaaaa Haaaaaaaa    :twisted:

Feeling that my employer just hates me no matter what I do BOOOOOOOOOO

Took a hot shower and listening to country music, cleaning out fridge, getting ready to go out for a walk.  Mehhhhhhh

An extra emergency Holiday off from work  (YAYYYYYY)  from an employer that makes us work on Thanksgiving and all Holidays except for Christmas (Boooooooooooooooooooooooooooo). That is right we only get one Holiday off the whole year.

And my employer will probably withhold any kind of bonus from me because I didn't go into today AFTER the sign on the door said closed. Anyways. I guess I better get out now.

Meh:
Today I snapped at a new manager where I work.

She chastised me in public. Talked to me like I was 4 years old. She jumped on me telling me I was doing it wrong. She and another idiot supervisor had to go speak to the head of the department. The head of the department told them that YES I WAS DOING IT CORRECTLY.

Somehow I am still wrong. I really hate that at my age when I go to work I have parent-child relationships with my superiors. I guess in order for them to feel superior they have to interact with us as if we are children. Today I felt like I was being scolded by a parent. I Complained about it  "confidentially".

There are just so many stupid things that go on there and they expect me to be some kind of feces licking lamb. Anyways. I just needed to get it out.

I always have felt that I am going to be fired there.

Meh:
Working overtime so the company I work for can make millions this season. Fell HARD on my bum this morning striding over black ice pavement that I didn't see. Was thinking about Christmas decorations. Now home drinking some wine + cheese. Watching netflix - Marvel comics inspired series. Feeling really lonely. Glad that I am home and not out and about late at night though I wish I had the day off and was out doing holiday cheer activities or whatever.

Meh:
Wish I had the time and energy &&& ALSO motivation to shop and do stereotypical holiday activities but I don't.

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