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Lighter update house purchase 2014 - 20257
lighter:
Deb:
It makes me feel happy to think about mounting those plates and platter..... and I will. : )
As of now, my brain is throbbing from BIT, left side mostly on top, and all day today the top of my brain.
DD13 had her first BIT session today, and was quite dizzy and sleepy during and afterwards. BC she slept through much of it things went very quickly. They completed lymbic system, and started work on vision, which they'll finish next week.
I've hit a snag in my bedroom organization...... it's confusing to have two closets the size of small bathrooms, each housing mixed items including clothing, medications, paints and wood finishing supplies, file cabinets, and a tv...... I'm sure there's more, but I moved the bench/bed and headboard out, so that's done, but..... so many moving pieces.
So, I have all this space, and all this stuff. Emptying, editing....... I can't take ONE thing and finish it which is what book says has to happen, lest we get lost. I'm a bit lost. I can't just DO clothes, bc I have all this stuff where the clothing might go.... not sure what I'll put where, and have to know what I have left to know how much space will be needed. ::Brain throbbing::
I think trying to do this work NOW is part of what makes me brain throb, frankly. BIT lady said that it takes 6 weeks for brain to calm down. Do I move the meds into the other closet? Into the hall closet? The bathroom? Do I need the cool white medicine cabinet at my dad's? Where would I put it? ::throb throb::
On a positive note, dd15 started to melt down last night over not getting her way. Melting down is her default response. I watched her in the reaview mirror as she stopped, looked puzzled, then asked out loud why she was reacting that way. Then she chose another reaction.... being polite, and engaging me in a mature discussion that lead to her getting a compromise that pleased us both.
I asked her if that was the first time she noticed that reaction, and she said it was the second time. JOY JOY JOY JOY!!!!!!!!
This is the first time she identified that behavior, had control enough to stop it, and figure out a better way to react.
THIS IS HUGE!
The BIT gal said she got shivers hearing this, and it's what makes her job so fulfilling. She hears these stories all the time, and I'm just so thrilled!
I'm working on master bath design,trying to figure out what furniture to keep, what to paint and sell, and what to put where, policing up house in not so KONDO fashion, keeping kids on track with school stuff which is a challenge bc of recent sickness, and oldest dd's situation which is improving (she has till April 15 to complete entire 3rd quarter work, which she can do easily) but I'm concerned, and she responds better if i don't speak to her about her schedule, etc. It's so hard to step back, and let them take ownership, but that's what I have to do.
We have appt with career/University choice guidance counselor next week, and I'm hoping that gives both kiddos focus and food for thought..... really want dd15 to find some passion for career path, not that she has to stick with it, but..... she'd really enjoy researching a career and what has to happen to make it so IF she can identify a passion out side of something in" computer science." The process includes exploring several careers, with successful mentors giving input and guidance from those fields.
::crossing fingers::
I forgot, I also have to get to Step fathers to pick up big piece of furniture, and some things of my Mother's. It'll be fun to figure out where to put it..... it's a piece with maybe..... 40 small drawers in it. Not sure what I'll use it for, but I'll be working on it: )
Lighter
Hopalong:
This may comfort you some, Lighter...
Don't give up on the Kondo bits that speak to you but don't make it a perfectionist thing either.
That might be HER problem!
http://www.theatlantic.com/entertainment/archive/2016/03/marie-kondo-and-the-privilege-of-clutter/475266/#article-comments
love,
Hops
lighter:
Thanks for that, Hops.
I had an epiphany when I read the word "perfection."
I think I have to have everything lined up just right.... multi tasking spaces, maximizing storage.
You know what? My clothing doesn't take up 1/4 of my closet.... the one closet. I was viewing everything, every foot of height and width as space I had to fill up, perfectly organize, and have ready for usefulness.
What a choking bad mistake that was.....
::shaking it off::
I don't have to fill up my closets. I don't have to live by some potential for each square foot in my head.... it can just be open clear clean space, right?
I think I'll work on paperwork tonight, then address the stuff when I'm fresh in the morning.
Thanks, Hops.
Lighter
Twoapenny:
--- Quote from: lighter on March 25, 2016, 07:48:23 PM ---Thanks for that, Hops.
I had an epiphany when I read the word "perfection."
I think I have to have everything lined up just right.... multi tasking spaces, maximizing storage.
You know what? My clothing doesn't take up 1/4 of my closet.... the one closet. I was viewing everything, every foot of height and width as space I had to fill up, perfectly organize, and have ready for usefulness.
What a choking bad mistake that was.....
::shaking it off::
I don't have to fill up my closets. I don't have to live by some potential for each square foot in my head.... it can just be open clear clean space, right?
I think I'll work on paperwork tonight, then address the stuff when I'm fresh in the morning.
Thanks, Hops.
Lighter
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Lighter, I am currently in love with 'space', I am really enjoying emptying rooms as I pack. I'm clearing away loads of stuff, stuff we don't need, projects I started but never finished, books I've never read but kept because friends gave them to me. Clothes - I don't have many so I can't clear too much away there, but I've split them into clothes I love and then all the others and I'm trying to wear something I love every day, even if it's just a pair of earrings. But I'm feeling like space in my home means space in my head as well, and maybe space in my heart as well? Space to welcome, rather than being clogged up with being afraid? Either way, space is feeling lovely at the moment, maybe you'll find you enjoy it, too? xx
lighter:
Tupp..... when I walk into my bedroom it feels TWICe AS LARGE with all the editing, and moving things about. TWICE AS LARGE.... that's incredible to me. And it feels really really good.
The habit to have stuff, organize stuff, have it just in case is something I'm identifying, and struggling with daily, but mindfully, and with hope.
It makes me happy to see you're choosing something to wear daily that brings you joy. I think about that, then go about my busy business not actually following through.... but at least choosing something that brings me comfort, with the goal being JOY at some point.
It does make me happy to look into my closet and see only things that bring me joy and comfort, opposed to so many things I can't see anything clearly.
Oh, and I did find another darned black and white sweater from my friend who passed away.
::shaking head::
It's still in my closet.....but..... It's not wool. Sure, it's too short, but it could be layered... and on and on my circular arguments go with myself.
I think I was doing much better when all I had to think about was that big pile of clothing on the floor. Kondo is pretty wise, actually.
::accepting the black and white sweater needs to go into the give away pile::
Kond said everything we forget to put in the pile gets automatically binned.
::nodding and putting disc 22 of Rutherfurd's PARIS book on CD into computer as background noise while I work::
I feel better.
((((Tupp))))
Editing our stuff is a good thing, but we'll stick with it, and see how that works out for us: )
Lighter
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