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Lighter update house purchase 2014 - 20257
Twoapenny:
Lighter is this another battle with the in-laws? That they have instigated? I really feel for you and understand what you are saying about the adrenaline dump. I still want to see if I can take legal action (or to be more precise, if my son can, although it would have to be me that got the ball rolling on his behalf) with regard to all the false allegations of abuse and the subsequent damage that did to him (ie his disability was missed for a long time because his symptoms were being put down to abuse and neglect) but I know that diving back into that nightmare is going to play havoc with me and my word, it is so tiring. Whatever the situation is with this next courtroom scenario I hope it is resolved as quickly and easily as possible, my word, you deserve that. I will look up that DVD you suggested, thanks for the recommendation :) xx
lighter:
Tupp:
ILs instigated, but I let them this time. I KNEW better than to trust the attorneys, or anyone involved, and yet I let them talk me into believing that THIS time it would be over IF ONLY I SIGNED THIS DOCUMENT, and of course course course things went EXACTLY az I said they would.
SO SO SO SO SO sick of being right over nad over and over failing to honor my gut. My gut knows things, is wise, and should be trusted.
When will I learn?
Oh, my brain seems to be working better so the organization is going more smoothly. I'm seeing ahead before I get to the place in the road where I'd normally see where a document would fit, or a new rabbit hole needs to be added.
Yay me; )
Lighter
Twoapenny:
--- Quote from: lighter on May 28, 2016, 05:15:12 PM ---Tupp:
ILs instigated, but I let them this time. I KNEW better than to trust the attorneys, or anyone involved, and yet I let them talk me into believing that THIS time it would be over IF ONLY I SIGNED THIS DOCUMENT, and of course course course things went EXACTLY az I said they would.
SO SO SO SO SO sick of being right over nad over and over failing to honor my gut. My gut knows things, is wise, and should be trusted.
When will I learn?
Oh, my brain seems to be working better so the organization is going more smoothly. I'm seeing ahead before I get to the place in the road where I'd normally see where a document would fit, or a new rabbit hole needs to be added.
Yay me; )
Lighter
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Oh, Lighter, I'm sorry that you are having to deal with this all over again. The attorney that deceived you - argh! I have come up against so many people like that over the years and it makes me want to claw my own stomach out. The problem, I find, is that I tend to assume that most people are reasonably honest and truthful. Then, of course, you discover a lot of people aren't (and in my experience I've had far more problems with well off 'professionals' than I ever have with people who are a bit down on their luck and might have a reason to need to nick a few quid) but if you aren't willing or able to assume most people are honest then that leaves you suspicious and cynical of everyone and I think that's even worse. It's a real kicker.
I'm glad you are able to sort out the documents and other things more easily this time but sorry that you are having to deal with it all over again. Your inlaws! I wish they could find something better to do with their time. I'm sorry you're going through this again. Well I am thinking of you and sending love and good wishes to you and your girls (and a cyber slap to that lying attorney and 'go and start a stamp collection' thoughts to your inlaws who clearly have far too much time and money on their hands).
((((((((((((((((((Lighter and girls)))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))) xx
lighter:
Tupp:
There are many attorneys involved with different intentions and motives. Some are just misguided and ignorant, manipulated and honestly believe they're doing GOD's work, likely.
Some are ready to clean their plates of these issues and would do anything to accomplish that, IME. They want to believe the actors , and other attorneys "wouldn't DO" the things they've done..... I can't say it's evil, but certainly human nature to be lazy, dismissive, emotionally jerked around.
::uncrossing eyes::
As one of the teachers directing traffic at our school said.....
"People are stupid." Critical thinking skills don't SEEM to be highly valued in this culture, but that's just my experience.
The good news is it's behind me, even if it's not. I FEEL like it's done, and my life has moved beyond it. About darned time, really.
Today I noticed I'm keen on personal responsibility, opposed to avoiding social interaction. I usually just avoid avoid avoid awkward, or uncomfortable ness, but I'm really set on assertive communication for myself. I have lots of practice lately, which leads to more insight, and doors opening...... more joy, and feeling empowered. This is huge for me.
I don't know who wrote it lately, but I took notice..... "Observe, don't absorb." That's a theme for me right now, and makes it easy to focus on communication when I'm not focusing on how other people feeeel. I can focus very clearly on my own needs, feelings, and wants. I can change my mind, and I'm entitled to put myself first. I don't know where this sea change came from, but it's really nice, bc I'm still me, and nice, and want the best for everyone around me.
MAYBE it's something to do with the BIT? Not sure, but I will say this.....
the Trustee is someone I didn't do any work around with regard to the BIT stuff, and I noticed over the past few days I had an emotional response to him that I'm not having in regard to any other difficult people in my life (I did BIT work round.)
::sigh::
The journey continues ((((Tupp)))).
Lighter
lighter:
Wow, my last update was very.... judgy, huh?
Anyway, ongoing emphasis on organization, and keeping the house smelling like peppermint and eucalyptus, which requires I fill the little electric smell making machines with oil daily. I'm to the point where I remember belatedly, but remember..... am working towards doing it without thinking daily, so it's a habit that brings pleasure. I really enjoy being in an environment that smells lovely.
I have much energy right now. Have been eating g/s/d and am into second month with it. I'm active, and anticipating all the walking with upcoming trip happily. I'm taking my supplements without trouble, and drinking lots of green juices, mostly celery, kale, spinach, and spirulina blends with the Zeolites. The far infrared sauna was lovely yesterday, and I'm going to try to make regular appointments for that since I'm not struggling with other things at the moment. Will see. I had an iron IV yesterday, and that gave me a chance to go over the Eat for your blood type stuff. Lentils are bad for B's, and that's such a shame bc I LOVE LOVE LOVE them. Pork bad. Love. The cool thing is I adore rabbit and have the freezer stocked up right now.... Rabbit is beneficial for Bs so that's a good thing.
I feel like I just broke out of a thick heavy cloud, and can see for miles around.... now. I look around and my to do list is getting done without much struggle, if any.
I try not to wait for the other shoe to fall with upcoming legals, and seem to be managing it. The more I think about it, the more I see with clarity how wrong the Trustee is, and how bad his story will sound in a courtroom. I've felt this way before, with attorneys assuring me I'm wrong, but..... I was pretty much dead on, so am keeping an open mind with this.
A friend is struggling with his stuff, which really helps me drive home lessons I'm trying to solidify for myself.... all good. Another friend is flourishing and we're enjoying that together. I'm putting everything in place so I have child care covered for October classes I want to attend out of State. Very excited about that.
::sigh::
Oldest really started to do some BIG work at camp in week 5. The T said she looks like she really belongs in the woods for the first time, and she's not suffering/struggling with lack of comfort at this time. She's maturing, and growing, and not in a big hurry to get out is what I'm hearing.
I'm pretty happy right now, all in all.
Lighter
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