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8 shades of misery.
Ales2:
exhausted.
in pain.
frustrated.
overwhelmed and bored simultaneously, if thats possible.
angry.
feeling vindictive with just a sliver of decency left that prevents me from acting on it.
hopeless
misery
Twoapenny:
Aw Ales, I'm sorry to read this. Understand overwhelmed and bored very well, that alone is enough to trigger all the other feelings, in my experience. Can you escape? Rest, change path, hide under duvet, run up a mountain? What is the situation? Hope something changes soon.
Hopalong:
Could something new be surfacing that your T could help you get through?
((((((((Ales))))))), I'm so sorry you're in the grip of these feelings.
Emotions are weather...sometimes all you can do is breathe, have faith,
even if it's no more than trusting nature.
Everything changes, even the bad stuff.
Hang in,
Hops
Ales2:
Thanks Two and Hops for your posts of support.
There was no situation, just another bad day while trying to move on. I took care of myself and had a nice dinner, relaxed at home, but was disappointed with my attitude and productivity yesterday. I got in some kind of overanalysis funk and could not get out. It was also hormonal as I later found out. Yuck.
And Hops, there is no T right now. Ive lost trust in anyone being able to help me other than me. I read and I listen, but sometimes find being vulnerable is dangerous. I do however feel safe here.
Also, I have to add that I was not able to comment on your heartbreaking post Hops, I'm not any better off than you right now - my job finished July 1st and I am looking again and have not saved enough for retirement and have a negative net worth situation (more debts than assets). I could feel your pain and disillusionment in your post.
Twoapenny:
--- Quote from: Ales2 on August 07, 2016, 02:19:34 PM ---Thanks Two and Hops for your posts of support.
There was no situation, just another bad day while trying to move on. I took care of myself and had a nice dinner, relaxed at home, but was disappointed with my attitude and productivity yesterday. I got in some kind of overanalysis funk and could not get out. It was also hormonal as I later found out. Yuck.
And Hops, there is no T right now. Ive lost trust in anyone being able to help me other than me. I read and I listen, but sometimes find being vulnerable is dangerous. I do however feel safe here.
Also, I have to add that I was not able to comment on your heartbreaking post Hops, I'm not any better off than you right now - my job finished July 1st and I am looking again and have not saved enough for retirement and have a negative net worth situation (more debts than assets). I could feel your pain and disillusionment in your post.
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Ales, I suspect only children of N's feel they ought to be able to have a bad day and sail through it with a Stepford Wife smile in place and no negative thoughts :) One thing I am finally starting to learn is that it is perfectly okay (in fact I think it should be mandatory from time to time!) to just feel crap when you're having a crap time. It is good to read that you looked after yourself through it :) And I understand what you mean about the T; I went quite a long time without one as the couple I tried just weren't right - and sometimes I think it's good to see how much sense you can make of it all without someone else's input? Hope you're feeling a bit better today xx
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