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sKePTiKal:
Ask and ye shall receive.

I have pestered Doc enough this week about my personal, mental conflict that he fell back on his military training, and wrote me specific orders - giving me command of my 10-acre "canvas", and direct orders to not engage any further with any current or past experience of anyone who insists on criticizing my choices, substituting their own, or implying I'm not capable of doing anything I want to do. It was cute & funny. Kinda the kinds of things I remember doing as a kid, playing and interacting with other kids in our imaginary "games".

Here's the funny thing though: it seems to work for me. Reading them got a lot of those thoughts & feelings to stop crowding me - get out of my way.


--- Quote ---Office of XXXXXXX Command
XXXXXXX BRANCH
2 AUGUST 2017

To All Who Shall See These Presents, Greetings!
You are hereby directed to pay attention to the man behind that curtain in carrying out these orders!

From:  Oz, the Great and All Powerful
            Commander, XXXXXXX Command
To:       Skeptical
 
Subj: Permanent Reinstatement of Self-Confidence and Change of Duty Description


1. When directed by reporting senior, permanent change of duty is directed and authorized on or about this date.

REPORT AS COMMANDING OFFICER, XXXX FARM, [state]:
 
    1. (a) Permanent position and change of attitude is hereby authorized and directed.
    1. (b) Ignoring, disregarding and avoiding any and all persons, both male, and female who behave in demeaning, abusive or jealous manner is authorized and directed.
    1. (c) Reinstatement of permanent self-confidence and self-determination is authorized and directed. 
    1. (d) Exercise of any and all previously acquired skills regarding safety, happiness, and survival including (but not limited to) the following is directed:

<snipped list of skills>


   2. Refusing to tolerate demeaning or belittling language from any person, be they female or male, whether blood relative or not, is hereby authorized and directed.
   3. Consultation with peers is authorized.
   4. Self-determination in all matters of XXXX FARM is authorized and directed.
   5. Command authority of XXXX FARM in all aspects is included.
   6. Acknowledgment of Receipt is directed.

//s// 
Trim (for)
Oz, The Great and All Powerful
Commanding
--- End quote ---

It's like a permission slip, to just turn off the useless back & forth in my thoughts. But more so -- a direct command to do so. And it's not the kind of "command" that I would immediately resist and fight tooth and nail. On general principle: you can't tell me what to do - kind of thing.

He is certainly turning into a "useful brother".

(His description for the types of relationships I should focus on instead of seeking another one on one, romantic relationship. I haven't actually agreed with him on that point yet. He himself, can let the "command & control" aspect of himself get away from him. But since that seems to be what I've been doing anyway - with my "chaperone", and some others - I'm not challenging that "prescription" yet.)

lighter:
Hi Amber:

I found the Doc's list very interesting from 2 perspectives.  Struggling to phrase and GIVE advice in the past, and also trying to receive advice with more attention and clarity in the present. 

This guy had no trouble providing clarity..... even though he's speaking to things I've read or heard elsewhere in many cases.... he attacks with economy of motion and phrase.  No excuses or reasons.  Only action. 

I like it.

Lighter

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