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Twoapenny:
--- Quote from: lighter on March 21, 2018, 01:26:47 PM ---I'm still pretty chill, but notice first reactions as they come up, for instance.....
thjs morning my phone wouldn't dial out in a few cases......
first reaction was MY PHONE's BROKEN, WHATEVER WILL I DO?!?!? ALL IS LOST if my phone won't work!
Second reaction.... maybe it's just the storm... how will that effect my next week, month, rather than gee... I hope everyone IN the storm is safe, and warm, which did come up, but geez.
Third reaction.... Oh well.... will figure it out.
It's interesting I catastrophized it right off the bat....
hmmm..... the phone's working again, and contractor said his was doing the same weird refusing to ring thing too. Will have a working phone with all important contacts in place during trip, whew. I'm relieved bc it's working, and relieved I noticed the pattern, and stopped it before it changed my day.
I picked up a refurbished computer..... bullet proof... very sturdy retro DELL, and I love it. They keyboard is lit, if a little smaller than I'm used to. It's loaded with everything I need, and more. I highly recommend refurbished computers, at least from sellers who do the work themselves, and know what they're doing. This guy had ONE computer when I called, and he's working to wipe two old ones of mine, and install Windows 7.... $50.00 total. What a deal!
I will say this about refusing to spin, and allow anxiety unchecked into my life....
Life is better this way.
I want to this to last.
Lighter
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Refurbs are the best, Lighter, I just bought my son his own laptop (we've always shared before but I thought as he's 16 he should have his own now) and I bought him a new one, absolute pile of rubbish, sent it back the following day and bought him a refurb from the same place I got mine, much better spec for less money, sturdier and stronger and powered up straight away without any problems. The new one took ages to go through set up and then kept going through it, it had a very noisy fan, kept flashing an error message saying there was no power supply (all plugged in, no loose bits) and just felt very flimsy. Refund on way :)
Good to read that you noticed the reaction before reacting to the reaction :) I think that's the bit, if you can catch it, question it a bit and then work out a new or different way to deal with it. I think there's always more pressure in a situation like yours where you have a limited amount of time to get things done and various strands that may or may not cause problems. Lots of balls up in the air. But great that you saw what was going on and then it seemed to fix itself anyway :) Fingers crossed for more of that :) xx
lighter:
Tupp:
I'm more and more impressed with this refurb computer by the hour. It IS sturdier..... a Dell Latitude.... semi rugged business computer.... and it did start right up.... no problems, no adverts, nothing missing or in need of attention. Will likely download some Malware and keep moving. Will take it with me, I'm feeling so good about it. I was sharing a taped together computer with oldest dd. The screws come out of the corners, then the thing starts coming apart. Then there's tape, and eventual sparks.... sometimes it's the charging ports. This computer has the charger in the back... not sure how that will work out, but it never goes well on the side charging ports for us.
Figured out how to download printer software. DD17 helped, and it went smoothly. The mouse has fancy arrows I'm still getting used to, but all is well.
Can't wait to get my other computers back working for 50.00.... what a deal. I don't think I'll have to purchase any computers for a very long time.
The snow largely missed us... I can see snow, but it's not covering the roads.
And... amazingly.... my contractor is bringing up how to collaborate, rather than argue.... he's motivated to problem solve before trouble begins! I'm bursting with goodwill, and gratitude. I can't explain it, but something shifted, and his energy is so much better. He's a dear man with so many gifts, and growing resilience in his life means more peace, more joy for him. He deserves it.
Tupp... for me "noticing" negative feelings before they carry me away actually dispells them. Sometimes I figure out what exactly the feelings are, or what brings them up, but it's usually an uber simple process without much thought at all. Very strange.... so simple.
We're surfing real good right now, Tupp: )
Lighter
lighter:
Well.... I'm feeling giddily sick as I prepare the house for departure. So many things out of my control. The girls have to grow up a bit.... they're almost adults and I fret like they're still small. This trip will be good for all of us, me'thinks.
It looks like all the shipments... most of the important ones, have arrived at warehouse or here. I'm trying to figure out whether to rent a truck, or a trailer and bring my own truck. Parking will be a problem while I'm gone.... 20.00 dollars a day in some lots... 10 in others. That's insane when you're looking at a month. Heck. Maybe we'll fly back home, so renting looks better this morning. We can take as much luggage as we want to pay for on that particular flight. Just doing the math in my head.
Math isn't a strength: )
I'm very sleep as I go about my morning ablutions. Coffee. Give. Me. Coffee.
lighter:
So.... noticing HUGE stress, and I've made a point of seeing chiropractor to keep self care moving along before industrial month of more stress with huge physical activity on top.
The Fridge wasn't delivered yesterday at 8am, bc Sears showed up after 4pm.... THEY WERE SCHEDULED FOR A 2 HOUR WINDOW FOR HEAVEN'S SAKE, and it was on the form to deliver between 8 and 4pm Mon ......
::smoothing blouse::..
so it's re scheduled fo rMonday instead of Tues, which was what a text said without saying WHY it was rescheduled... their fault, not bc of something to do with not deliverying to warehouses with loading docks, which was my fear, of all things, and
::smoothing blouse again::..
I notice how quickly I get upset, and more importantly, how quickly it goes away, and I get on with the business of rememdying situations... not dwelling on them, or transferring agression instead of problem solving. This is such relief, and I say this as Nana called at the same time I was dealing with Sears to say my father's headphones weren't working... neither one... and I suggested she check the batteries, rather than driving 2 hours to handle it myself, and POOF! She changed the triple A batteries and they were miractulously fixed without my muttering all the way there, and back to change batteries myself.
This is good bc I tend to just DO things for people, instead of guide and teach them to DO for themselves. I didn't feel anything about it... just a calm expectation that she'd handle it, and all would be well. Typically I'd spin thinking about my mostly deaf father going without the ability to hear the TV, which is his life at this point, and it would be all despair and trauma thinking about paperwork over warranties, finding said paperwork, and trying to handle it from out of the Country while father...
::smoothing blouse again::..
And I can honestly say that not knowing how I'll get to the port today.... renta;? My truck? Not sure, but it isn't bothering me right now to NOT know. I believe it will work itself out, and I'm confident it will be in the best possible way.
Now, to call the freight company and have them delivery my load next week.... they can deliver my container anytime over the next month the weather suits them. All will be well there too: )
This being able to sooth myself stuff is SO much better.
Lighter
lighter:
We're a day ahead with our schedule this morning, I'm well rested and on top of things.... relatively speaking......and then the Sears delivery people called.
What's going right?
Kids to school on time. We're loaded..... Shutter place is on our way. Life is good: )
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