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Hopalong:
Well this is just one of my late-night, dump-anxiety-on-the-Amazons posts.

I've had a few symptoms and am concerned about the possibility, hopefully remote, of colon cancer. (I read a lot to my dismay, used to write about health and medicine...). Anyway, had a consultation today (amazingly they had a cancellation and saw me within an hour) and will do a colonoscopy on the 15th. Had one a few years back, I'm not overdue, but they said let's do it. I'm glad because waiting is the tough part.

There, now I can go back to a bit of escapism. But it is a little scary. I don't want to predict anything but will say I feel concerned. FWIW.

Then again even if the news weren't great, I have a friend who had some surgery for this several few years back. Clean, done, no recurrences. Here's hoping it's all a false alarm. And that if it's not I behave like a grownup.

love,
Hops

Twoapenny:
Oh Hops.  I am sorry to read that you have this worry at the moment.  Even when a remote possibility, just a small doubt can weigh so heavy and it's very hard to keep your mind on other things (a bit like that thing when someone says "don't think about pink elephants" and then that's all you can keep in your mind :) ).  I'm glad they are seeing you quickly - can they give an answer on the 15th or will it be a little after that.  I think not behaving like a grown up is acceptable on some occasions :)  Do you have to travel far for the colonoscopy or is the hospital quite close by? xx

Hopalong:
Thanks, ((((Tupp))).
It's one of those things, just gotta wait until it's a real elephant or turns out to be a mouse. Squeak.

Their office is 5 minutes from my house and and they have a suite in the same building, so I'm having it done there. Not sure if I'll have to wait for the exam results or if this doc will tell me what he saw/didn't see immediately. A friend will take me, wait, then drive me home. One thing I love about where I live is that everything is 5-10 minutes from my house. Doctor, bank, library, cafes, shopping, drugstore. I could even walk to this doctor's if I wanted, it's about a mile (but too cold).

What I remember about the last one was the nap I had afterward (anesthesia lingering) was the sweeeeeeeetest sleep I can ever recall since childhood. So another one of those will be nice!

This probably sounds stupid but this morning with sun streaming in, pooch curled into her warm little doughnut shape at the foot of the bed, heater plugging away, I feel lucky regardless. Given my job, there's a whole lot of mortality going around in general, so a wee reminder of my own isn't a bad thing. (Concentrate the mind, get me focused, kind of thing.) But I sure hope it's nothing.

I'll update when I know more. Very comforting to have discharged the anxiety here.

hugs and thanks,
Hops

Twoapenny:
I will be crossing my fingers for mouse, Hops, but I don't think it's silly at all to feel lucky curled up in a warm bed with lovely pooch at your feet and a bit of sunshine on your face :)  Appreciating what we have even whilst worrying about other things can only be a good thing.  I'm glad the office is quite close by and that you have a friend to take you there (and yes, those naps are amazing, there's napping and then there's napping!).  I hope they're able to put your mind at rest quickly and that you get more sun and pooch time in the meantime  ((((((((((((Hopsie )))))))))))))))) xx

lighter:
I hope everything turns out ok, Hops.

Lighter

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