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Twoapenny:

--- Quote from: sKePTiKal on April 22, 2018, 10:10:32 AM ---Preparation can be tedious Tupp; I usually forget something in the process. But it's also kinda zen, if you allow yourself the space/time to get into it. And the "doing"... is the quick way into "the zone" for me. I need to find things to do, that put me in the zone MORE - lot's more. It's a great place to be for me for some reason.

And I think being in the zone, is what generates that "pleasantly tired", and a little stiff, but not sore the next day feeling... so that you feel like you want to DO MORE - from the zone again. Knowing this "place" it's really hard for me to take "exercise" seriously. I've never gotten this feeling from exercise - maybe I don't have improvements around me to look at.

I'll for sure stretch this morning. And I'm not going back to the work I've done for 2 days - doing something different today. Then I'll get back to moving those blocks in place.

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I think the thing I dislike about prep is that you do such a lot of work but it doesn't look like much?  Because the nature of prep is usually that the finished project looks good or works well or wasn't a nightmare to implement - it's the sort of 'avoiding future problems' stage of it.  So when decorating and decluttering for example, I might spend two days clearing out cupboards and washing and sanding walls and it doesn't look any different :)  It just means the end result is nicer than it would be if I hadn't done it all.  It's always worth it, it just feels like a slog at the time.  I'm glad you've got something different to do today and I hope the weather is clearing up a little :) xx

sKePTiKal:
Been BUSY!!    :shock:

The list of "doing what" is long, and definitely a "one from column A, one from column B" sorta combination. So busy, I forgot the clothes in the washer overnight; and again in the dryer. LOL. I guess I'll see if they're that wrinkled and run them again. Before I start today's madness.

After today, I'm "in" for awhile and have some bigger jobs to tackle over the next 5-6 days or till it rains again. Someday, I'll dust & vacumn. House needs it top to bottom and I just remembered this morning, I never finished the interior poly on the windows. Need to get back at that too.

Having a new recurring dream: I'm lost in the city and trying to find my way back to where I can get a ride home. I quite literally don't know where I am and am dependent on total strangers. And it's a scary enough dream to wake me up. Nothing bad happens to me in the dream, except I don't know where I am. Holly sometimes figures in the dream; sometimes not.

Hopalong:
I have been trying to figure out how to make a list.
That is ridiculous.
What happens is, when I start writing down all I need to do I become totally overwhelmed about prioritizing and give up.
I'm ashamed of it because it's part ADD but part obstinant resistance.
When I can read for hours and NOT: plant patio pots, water blueberries (did have those planted after thinking about it for 5 years), sort/purge, paper, novel, etc.

I just brain freeze. Avoid deciding until I go to work around 1:00.
THEN, because I'm taking care of someone else...I'm motivated.

Your lists help. Your energy and ability to motivate yourself to do all this work FOR yourself are something I would like an injection of.

Thanks for the inspiration, Amber.

A poetry prof once said, there's no such thing as a nightmare, our subconscious is processing something. It's getting released that way, so it won't hobble us.

love
Hops

sKePTiKal:
Hops, limit yourself to 3 things on the list! Those are today's targets. If you don't get there today (and yes, I have days like that) transfer them to tomorrow's list -- and don't add anything ELSE. I have a tremendous amount of resistance that particularly pops up about things "I want". I think it's because after all this time of doing it myself I REALLY want someone to do it for me. And when I ignore the whole list... the whiny inner child is saying "I don't feel like it", "I don't wanna". So, I don't... and remind her it will still be there tomorrow.

Sometimes, I have to go do something I really enjoy BEFORE I can muster the motivation to the things I know I need to do. Things that are in the way of me doing other things I enjoy.

sKePTiKal:
I'm being lazy today. Not quite "comfortably" lazy. I feel like I "should" be taking advantage of the slightly cooler temps and good breeze today - lots to be done and half my dirt's here! But oak pollen is pretty strong right now and I am physically tired. I had to hustle to get a space ready for the dirt yesterday... and then they couldn't put it there without risking turning the dump truck over. Two days and nights of really HOT weather was enough of "trying to work through it" or sleep through it, for me.

Compost is supposed to be delivered today. I'm still waiting on diesel fuel cans (for the bobcat) to get delivered. It's not as "thrifty" as the ranger is with fuel... and it's me hauling them to the gas station and lifting/carrying heavy cans. Not my favorite chore. And I've committed to getting tires on the Cherokee tomorrow... so I guess this is just regroup time. I still having mowing to do... and so many other things... and well, they'll still be there if I don't do them right now.   :P

Highs are going back to the 70s next week. Much better for me to work in. And a really humid/wet weekend ahead. There's still stuff I can do inside to cross off the list finally.

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