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sKePTiKal:
That's what's nice about this guy Hops. We're having a perfectly ordinary "getting to know you" conversation. No red flags, no overly intimate stuff, just two people talking online.... just like THIS. Talking about losing spouses. Things we like to do... day in, day out stuff.

Does it help that he looks like a viking (and those DO look like authentic photos; no telling how old of course)? Yeah, kinda. Does it help he ran a nightclub in the 80s-90s that catered to rock & roll... and now has a much less "glam", more blue collar job?? YEP. We have music in common at least, some bands. We both survived our contact with that world, with our sanity intact. Does it help that he feels good about how his kids turned out, after raising them without his spouse? That too. He like boats, fishing, the Ohio State Buckeyes... (no one's perfect)... and he doesn't seem emotionally needy.

I might be though. LOL. I do keep checking to see if he's responded to my last message, which I'm working really HARD to keep from overly verbose. I tossed him a question this morning - that might cause him to run the other way as fast as he can. We'll see. I could be wrong about how I think he'll answer.

Weather is not enticing me to work outside today, but I might venture out to bring up one of the tall ladders and get light bulbs in my living room fixture. Ladder's heavy and has to come up steps. Then, this afternoon the bridge for my tv/storage unit is getting delivered and connected - THEN, I can finally put stuff ON it. Right now, I have all the electronics hooked up and only have to pull one plug to move the base cabinets, it's all in. I don't know what all we need to do... but I am going to have to level the left side shelves while things are pulled out and I have some muscle here.

I've ordered some rosa rugosa - rose hip bushes - to plant as one of the foundations of my food/fantasy - read: flowers & herbs - garden. I think I need some lilacs too. Fruit trees could go in this year too... but now I need to have a) front end loader and b) backhoe... for all this heavy work. That's a lot of holes to dig by hand in rocky soil. I need to call 811 and get my underground power marked too. I don't want to dig anything up or break it. And that needs to be done for running the power to the barn, too.

lighter:
Vikings...

::Smiling::..

There are good ones, and all other manner, so stay frosty.  Believe him when he tells you who he is, and he likely will if you let him talk with zero judgement from you. 

Spring looks like it's lining up pretty well for you, Amber.  I'm so glad.

Lighter

Hopalong:
"Hey Mr. Vi...
Now that we've chatted some, would you like to meet for coffee? It's good to meet the real person behind the messages. Let me know, Brunhilde"

Amber, there's no such thing as ordinary conversation with you, you know.

 :lol:

So happy you're having fun. Urge you to get offline asap and meet the guy. Before it builds...

hugs
Hops

sKePTiKal:
He's 5-6 hrs away from my location.

sKePTiKal:
The Viking is minding his manners and he's letting me babble on about myself, in hopes he starts to feel comfortable doing the same. I didn't scare him off yet. We aren't giving a lot of demographic information - so for instance, we couldn't track each other down and there's nothing for me to check online about him. It's just ordinary people conversation so far - no emotional anything.

He evaporated for a couple of days due to flooding in his area. And I felt like it would've been OK if he'd been scared off. No harm done; still no expectations... but that also indicates to me that we might just be passing the time, without any real connection or caring. I think I'm still OK with that, at this point.

Whatever strange space I've been in the past month, is starting to shift. And I'm completely re-examining my spring "to-do" list. I'm glad I didn't just jump into some really big projects just yet. I've got 10 rosa rugosa on their way, and I need to know where I can safely dig holes... plan out fencing... and think things through - keeping the whole picture in mind - including future "expansion" before I end up doing something that will become an obstacle or awkward later on.

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