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sKePTiKal:
I still have snow on the steps/deck at the studio. I guess I need to start the process of getting them clean and dry for the weekend. Kids will be here and I have a heavy piece of furniture that's going out there. It's supposed to be warming up - F I N A L L Y.

But, wanted to stop in and say that waiting so long to plant "Mike" turned out to be the right decision for me. Yes, I let him have a year at the "little cabin" he liked - and that I sold. But I had plenty of time to process that the contents of the plastic box weren't him any longer... and what WAS him, that I missed, was prior to the year or so when he tried to cover up that he was sick. He's been "gone" long enough now... that while I still miss certain aspects of him from time to time... that space he occupied for me, doesn't hurt any longer... and doesn't rightly belong to him, either. I'm reclaiming it.

And since no one else is actively seeking to occupy that space, I think I might just go on about my days right now, busting through some more "can'ts"... and maybe breaking some old taboos... and finally fixing a few things about "me" that have needed attention that I directed to other people for so long.

Look out world. LOL.

lighter:
Finally.....
all your energy directed to yourself, Amber.

Finally: )

Lighter

Twoapenny:
I'm glad you got him in a nice spot, Skep, and I think those informal, getting on with it type ceremonies can often be the best.  I like that idea of you taking him with you to the cabin.  I hope the snow doesn't cause too many problems!  We had a lovely spring day today but they are forecasting snow again for the end of the week.

sKePTiKal:
It's official. I have spring fever. Today is supposed to be the warmest day, till the end of April. Which explains why my area is totally socked in with fog again today - there are still patches of snow on the ground, and it's been rainy for a few days on top of the melting.

It's now week 2, that I've been waiting on power co & electrician to get together here, decide what's what... and how they're going to proceed. I am pretty useless in the process; to me, it's simple - there's power at that pole or the transformer at the house - now, hook it up to the barn. As far as deciding the best way to do that... I am not qualified to make those decisions.

Bless my electrician, he kept thinking of more options for me to choose from until I finally said: I want THIS, and put that HERE... and how the wire gets to that - I don't really care. Even if it costs more money. If you think it's a better solution - let's do that. He does know I know about some things, and therefore have a "vision" and expectation in mind. But when it comes to this level of electricity, pardon me while I pick my nose and go sit in the corner and drool. I can't possibly know HOW I want it done; I just want it done. LOL.

I guess there's not much anyone can do about mother nature and her delight in throwing a kink into plans. It's been a reallllllllly long winter. And all of April is going to be 10 degrees cooler than normal. More like March, than April around here. I am so glad I didn't go whole hog starting seeds. But I did indulge in buying a box of herbs, the first week our nursery was open. They didn't have the lavender grosso, so I got 3 hidcotes and 2 munsteads; a couple spearmint (said to keep the stinkbugs at bay); oregano, thyme, and sage. I'm going to use the cool weather to finally get my kitchen beds designed and built. I'm also considering "editing" my driveway some this year.

Twoapenny:
It's been a long winter here as well, Skep, everyone's itching for the bad weather to clear off now and to let Spring come through.  We keep getting the odd nice day and it's sooooo lovely.  Can't wait to be able to sit outside in comfort lol.

I feel the same way about getting jobs done; A needs to get to B so please just sort it :)  I think when the information is out of our zone of understanding it's better to let someone else decide the best way to do it or suggest an alternative if what we want isn't practical so I hope it all gets organised soon and I'll keep my fingers crossed the weather starts to perk up.

Next door's cat keeps trying to let himself in; he reminds me of your moggy that adopted you :)  He was sitting out on the step when we got home and he kind of slinks through the door as we come in and get our shoes off lol.  He's absolutely lovely and so affectionate but our cat hates other cats and it's not fair on her so I give him a cuddle and then chuck him back out lol.  He's very well looked after but is a real lap boy so when his owner's out at work he keeps trying all the houses hoping to find a lap to curl up on :)

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