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lighter:
You're as busy as I was. Workers were just showing up.....great but directing everyone, and keeping jobs on track very chaotic. Then material runs, receiving deliveries, and managing orders.... Whoo boy. Ups and downs, adrenaline dumps, putting out fires, and trying to get our own work done....SO nerve wracking. I was afraid to stop moving. I'm sure you have those moments.
I got home Thursday night, and spent a day planning meals with my girls. Oldest DD and aI shopped today for specific recipe ingredients. Trying to honor every food, and waste nothing. Create interesting healthy meals we all want to eat. This is the first time we're all three on same page, and I'm letting them lead.
Youngest is limiting stupid carbs, and oldest nit arguing about it. Amazing!
There's 9 people staying at island cottage....with one bathroom, and one outdoor shower. :shock:
I can't worry about it, but my sister has her hands overtly full with feeding them, doing laundry, and everyone's comfort. Somehow she's pulling it off. During the day everyone goes their own way swimming with rays, fishing, etc.
The place looks good....inviting, and pretty decent sleeping arrangements as far as I can tell.
Lordy....just getting fresh 5 gallon water bottles refilled daily on other island is a job. I bet they go through 2 a day if workers showing up, but I think everyone is playing for a while, not working.
It's splendid chaos.
Lighter
lighter:
My sibs are fishing, and swimming with rays and huge sharks, and eating fresh seafood, and planning the replacement of a major beam tomorrow, even as workers finally showed up again today... they haven't been to the cottage since I left. There was a funeral, and then the weekend, and you just never know when or why they'll show, IME, but the shed got shingles today! One more dawn of the dead project out of the way. It looks great. Maybe the smallest building will get roofed tomorrow. The guest cottage needs some repairs, new hurricane brackets, paint, and finally hurricane shutters.
I'm told there's a 10 foot flamingo float the relatives pull with the little blow up boat, and it's much fun. I love thinking of that. I wonder if things will still be there when I get back. I hope my kids can enjoy it, and I can enjoy it with them.
The rain comes down hard, on and off here today. I feel helpless, and guilty for putting the heavy beam project on my BIL. I feel bad about my sis organizing the cottage for company, but I try to remember all the other work that got done they won't have to deal with. I try to let it wash over me, and go by without giving it energy. I know they don't want me to feel bad, and NEED me to feel OK, in fact.
Less fear and worry...
more gratitude and curiosity.
Lighter
Twoapenny:
--- Quote from: lighter on August 20, 2018, 07:56:44 PM ---My sibs are fishing, and swimming with rays and huge sharks, and eating fresh seafood, and planning the replacement of a major beam tomorrow, even as workers finally showed up again today... they haven't been to the cottage since I left. There was a funeral, and then the weekend, and you just never know when or why they'll show, IME, but the shed got shingles today! One more dawn of the dead project out of the way. It looks great. Maybe the smallest building will get roofed tomorrow. The guest cottage needs some repairs, new hurricane brackets, paint, and finally hurricane shutters.
I'm told there's a 10 foot flamingo float the relatives pull with the little blow up boat, and it's much fun. I love thinking of that. I wonder if things will still be there when I get back. I hope my kids can enjoy it, and I can enjoy it with them.
The rain comes down hard, on and off here today. I feel helpless, and guilty for putting the heavy beam project on my BIL. I feel bad about my sis organizing the cottage for company, but I try to remember all the other work that got done they won't have to deal with. I try to let it wash over me, and go by without giving it energy. I know they don't want me to feel bad, and NEED me to feel OK, in fact.
Less fear and worry...
more gratitude and curiosity.
Lighter
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Gosh, Lighter, yes, you've done a huge amount of work there, not to mention being terrorised by that deranged workman! I hope you can stave off the guilt feelings a bit; like you say, I'm sure sis and BIL don't feel put upon and are probably glad of everything you've done. It sounds like such a huge project. The octopus painting in the bathroom sounds lovely :) xx
lighter:
Eh, I'd stopped thinking about the deranged contractor, Tupp. He's not important, and I feel like I've solved most of the problems he created. Such a relief to not be thinking about him. Thanks for bringing him up so I could notice that shift.....It's a good thing.
BIL and Brother think I need to put in a larger Mitsubishi AC unit, mounted in the largest open area of the house. I wonder if my electric panel can carry that load, esp if I put a smaller ac unit in every bedroom.
The smallest shed gets a roof tomorrow. That's a good thing, but I recognize guilt popping up... my BIL will do it, and had to go North to get framing nails while not feeling well.
::shaking head::
He mounted the lock box on the sea container today, and the 16' load bearing beam was replaced yesterday. It looks very neat, and open now that the decorative panes of glass are gone. Less cozy, but very nice.
He'll rebuild some of the sofa frame so I don't have to purchase, ship, and receive/pay duty on another. Very nice. They're spraying the bora care today on all untreated lumber, which should solve most of the termite and mold problems. I'm strangely flat about it, but think it's bc I don't have any control over how they mix or spray it. All that fighting to GET the product there, and I'm not there to deal with it. I can feel very powerless at times about it.
I could easily slip into feeling dread over renting the property. So many moving parts, and depending on people, and all the what could go wrongs?
The octopus painting saved that shower from looking creepy, if you can imagine it. I'm going to try to post a pic of it now.
Lighter
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