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lighter:
Hops:
I write about feeling a switch flip when I enter thezine I'd being present, on task and happily engaged at it, sans notice it stress
I'm focusing,now, on what the switch means when it's flipped the wrong way.
Usually I'm engaged in thoughts about the past, it fears about the future.
Perhaps the switch is something I have complete control over, if I can only notice, and bring myself back to where my feet are.
For me, it takes energy to DO that. It takes less energy to let habits lead, with familiar actions following. Being engaged in old patterns has it's rewards. I'm dealing with knowns, no unknowns.
Fear of success is as real as fear if failure.
It's lovely when the switch flips, and favors us with focus and energy, IME.
Learning to flip it takes work, and energy, IME. It's exhausting, to be truthful, and that's just noticing and doing it in starts and stutters.
About the light. A friend goes outside each day at sunrise, and takes in the light by looking left, then right of the sun. Never directly at it, of course. He finds this very helpful. He also goes out near sundown.
Lighter
Hopalong:
Thank you, Lighter.
The light I use feels aquariumy, in an odd way (I use the green-filtered one as it's better for retinas). But I love the image of your neighbor's personal sun salute.
I'll be at the beach Sat-Weds...so looking forward to those walks. Very hard to leave pooch behind this time, but it's a big group that's not dog-friendly. Next year I may organize my own houseful again. This time I'm happy to tag on to someone's else's planning, bless 'em.
Not positive about the wifi so nobody worry if I don't post for a bit!
I've been taking things a bit slower since Ngent died and when I get back, need to recruit some new people to help. Fortunately, I've learned over the last two years that this work is never going to be hard to find--I really can fill in a gap in care.
Meanwhile, in TWO novel/fiction workshops and that's startling me more awake, which is good too. And I'll be hosting a new covenant group at my home twice a month. This week is nuts. I also have a new gig showing a fancy condo/office area downtown for some friends from SF who have a sorta plantation property here and fly back and forth a lot. I'll just be the contact person to pass along info, schedule showings, etc, and I'm happy about the hourly rate. They have a top floor they'd like to do as a B&B so I may get that gig too. So it's a nice contrast to have BOTH kinds of hourly work.
Novel...home...friends...matter most of all.
Big hugs all,
Hops
lighter:
I think B&B work might be a bit easier on your soul, Hops.
You'd still be useful, and needed, but with people on vacation, with bright futures, and chatter around it.
You sound really good.
Have a great trip, and I can't wait to hear about your new covenant group.
Lighter
Hopalong:
Hi Lighter,
I value my work with the very old...their suffering does affect me as does losing someone I've gotten close to, but their perspective and experiences also deepen my spirituality in a way. Seeing their struggles but also their daily determination is humbling. The sheer effort to just keep going in a broken old body is heart-wrenching in some cases but also inspiring. Life is sweet and horrible and amazingly powerful.
I don't know what the B & B folks will be like but I'm pleased about the chance to pop downtown with a purpose and be welcoming to newcomers to the area. They may be privileged folks in great moods and I may be envious of their ability to afford travel! (Got to watch out for that.) And I'm also happy that the hourly rate is $5 better than I'm earning with the elders. Will report in a month or so, the SF lawyer is taking her time getting it coordinated. Has photos and a flyer done (for the separate office floor--I edited that for her today) but not much else.
Thanks for the vacay wishes, I'm looking forward to the break. But will really miss pooch.
Hugs
Hops
Twoapenny:
--- Quote from: Hopalong on October 01, 2018, 06:20:30 PM ---Thank you, Lighter.
The light I use feels aquariumy, in an odd way (I use the green-filtered one as it's better for retinas). But I love the image of your neighbor's personal sun salute.
I'll be at the beach Sat-Weds...so looking forward to those walks. Very hard to leave pooch behind this time, but it's a big group that's not dog-friendly. Next year I may organize my own houseful again. This time I'm happy to tag on to someone's else's planning, bless 'em.
Not positive about the wifi so nobody worry if I don't post for a bit!
I've been taking things a bit slower since Ngent died and when I get back, need to recruit some new people to help. Fortunately, I've learned over the last two years that this work is never going to be hard to find--I really can fill in a gap in care.
Meanwhile, in TWO novel/fiction workshops and that's startling me more awake, which is good too. And I'll be hosting a new covenant group at my home twice a month. This week is nuts. I also have a new gig showing a fancy condo/office area downtown for some friends from SF who have a sorta plantation property here and fly back and forth a lot. I'll just be the contact person to pass along info, schedule showings, etc, and I'm happy about the hourly rate. They have a top floor they'd like to do as a B&B so I may get that gig too. So it's a nice contrast to have BOTH kinds of hourly work.
Novel...home...friends...matter most of all.
Big hugs all,
Hops
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Wow, Hops, you are busy busy at the moment! Didn't know about green filters, I'll look into that. I've just been putting mine to the side so I don't look directly at it. I do think it's helping though, I'm feeling calmer and I'm not feeling sad at the later mornings and earlier evenings.
I think you are right about there always being work in caring for older people, Hops, and I would guess you have a good reputation and come with recommendations as you've been doing it for a while now. Very reassuring for people to know they have a good egg looking after them :) Beach get together sounds lovely, I hope you enjoy that. And writing group, group meets at home and new job showing people around?! I thought you were supposed to be unmotivated Hopsie?! Lol, what a busy time. I'm really glad you've got so many different things going on. I think having lots of irons in the fire is a good thing. I look forward to hearing more about it.
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