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lighter:
You go explore that new sourdough starter, Amber.

I have one rhetorical question.

What's a vet supposed to do IF the VA determines a life threatening infection isn't something they have to deal with, and things deteriorate while they're faffing about, wasting time?

Enjoy this beautiful fall weather, Amber.

Lighter

Lighter

sKePTiKal:
I am wholeheartedly enjoying it Lighter. This is my favorite time of year - when I have the most creative energy. So bread today; oatmeal raisin cookies for Buck later. I made biscuits a couple weeks ago that turned out great. So, I'm on a roll in the kitchen. Today Hol is making chili based on her boss' recipe, because Steve has a cold/sinus infection and refuses to take anything for it. There has been some chit-chat about stubborn men, in the kitchen today. LOL.

Sourdough loaves soon to go in oven. This is the "proof" as to whether or not I was able to capture enough local yeast from my air to make this work. I used to make bread a LOT and was pretty good at it. So far, things are looking very hopeful.

I'm really longing for all the domestic activities that I set aside as a single mom and later - because most of the time - the men in my life had other plans. But Buck is a homebody too. He's already travelled a lot of the world. I'm not saying we might go revisit some of them... but I seem to always have to much to do at home to go gallivanting. I don't even get over the mountain that much; once or twice a month is the usual.

I think - while we wait for things to either get so dire the situation over-rides waiting on a decision from the VA, or they decide - we need to have other things to talk about. So, I'm forcing myself to put aside my obsession over this right now and do what I can to keep finding things for him to look forward to. We're certainly not able to speed things along, talk sense to anyone, or effect any change at the moment. So, putting it down for awhile seems to make the most sense for us.

sKePTiKal:
Sourdough = 2; Amber = 0.

And here I thought, everything was going SO well this time. Right up until all the various raises and proofing. I still have the starter going so I'm not giving up just YET. Going back to reading again; see what I did wrong - or if I just don't have enough wild yeast in my house. (Will order some active starter; just in case I give up.)

Meanwhile, there is going to be smashing, and dust and crashing in my bedroom, as I destroy a concrete block hearth that used to have an electric fireplace in it. I'm going to carefully approach the mortar seams with a chisel to try to minimize the mess first, but I'm thinking that's probably not going to work well. Pretty well convinced the sledgehammer is my friend. Even tho the tiny tiles on the outside of it are going to fly all over the place. Sigh. Why couldn't they have used cement board?

Hopalong:
Woo-hoo...DEMO time!
I can just imagine how satisfying some sledgehammer action will feel, Amber.
Very Amazonian.

And I really loved reading your sane, calming, accepting perspective about Buck's health. So happy to hear you turning down the flame. I could feel you regaining control and balance.

Bravo!

xxoo
Hops

sKePTiKal:
Thanks Hops. It frequently gets too much for me and I have to step back into my own stuff awhile. Nothing else about him affects me that way; just this medical stuff he's not really in control of.

I'm in "make it change" mode, so the sledgehammer is appropriate. Hol is saying I'm not going to have the muscle to get thru it. HA. It may take me twice - or even 10x - as long as it would a couple of big farm boys. But, I NEED to expend the energy and I don't NEED - to do it the fastest easiest way. I just can't make her see that. Yes, it's daunting. Like moving a 400 lb rock. Uphill. I want to figure it out. Do as much as I can - rest - and go back at it until I'm tired of trying. I can't sit still and pay attention to anything right now. Smashing is good; smashing is fun.

:D

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