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sKePTiKal:
As society seems to be accelerating into a lot of clinically insane beliefs and behaviors, they also seem to be blaming people as "anti-social" for not choosing to participate in that. The positive spin on it, is "seek community" for these reasons.

I was born skeptical and a non-conformist. I'm eclectic - picking up something useful over here, wending my way over there to explore, intuitively seeking out what I think I want, and sometimes finding out what I need. I have no great need to "belong", at all. But that doesn't mean I'm anti-social; I like PEOPLE - preferably one on one, or in small groups.

Community, as a concept, manifests in a lot of different forms. This non-conforming hermit, has found community in mutually agreeable trades & exchanges & agreements with the locals here. I do business as much locally, as I can... and that's also helping. But it's not something that happens instantaneously. As I've needed help and reached out, I've also given help and treated people how I want to be treated. As just a person getting by, like everyone else. And it's for that reason that I keep certain information held very privately - my income level automatically causes some people to stereotype me, become jealous, or assign personal characteristics to me... that aren't true at all.

I think it is more objectively TRUE, that having a support network of "community" - whatever form that takes enhances well-being. Could just be a few close friends. Unrelated to each other. But it doesn't necessarily follow that all forms of community work for everyone or is a prerequisite to some perpetual "happiness" state. I'm really starting to dislike this "one size fits all" idea being applied to different people, with different needs and personalities and preferences and situations.

Meh:
Yah Skep community does take time and you're right it doesn't predict a perpetually happy state.

Meh:
Didn't sleep last night too much stress and adrenaline pumping, checked the clock it was 3 AM checked again it was 5 AM. So here I am "waking up" knowing I definitely shouldn't have any coffee today at all. Generally not feeling well.

Sometimes stress just happens.

Hopalong:
[Uncontrollable unsolicited advice alert...aaaah---ooo---gahhhh! Submarine dive klaxon thingie...]

DO try my three-step sleep routine. Just once.

I am preaching to myself, as usual.

But hope you try it.

Chamomile (2 bags) + Epsom Salts bath + melatonin.

See what happens? Or not. I plead wine and extra talkativeness tonight.

Hugs
Hops

Meh:
I've never tried melatonin. I am drinking sleepy time tea for breakfast. It's that bad.

Thank you Hops, you are very kind. Always trying to be thoughtful and helpful!

The thing is I think I have a serious anxiety disorder not all the time but when I have these heart pounding restless nights. I feel exhausted but don't sleep and then my jerk neighbors wake me up shortly after I do finally start to fall asleep.

It's just life. I've already flipped out over it and caused myself more stress with the neighbors.

I've ordered construction worker style ear muffs aka g*n range hearing protection. It might help a little with occasionally being able to take a nap. It's not really going to take the stress away.

Sometimes I feel like a non-adult for becoming so SO stressed out, it's that I'm flooded with stress hormones and I try the tactical breathing but it doesn't override what is already going on in my body.

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