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lighter:
Tupp: Heart Saver Plus is mostly L-Arginine+ citrulline nitric oxide booster... that's what the label boasts. Cardio health formula featuring methyl folate, it goes on to say. Lots of vitamins....g/s/d free, thank goodness.
And yes....the wolf dog, Tucker, passed away in his owner's arms.....we cried as owner told the story. I haven't seen that neighbor recently......sort of sticking to my own self. Pretty sure the squirrel with the broken paw got picked off pretty quick. Yesterday I watched a hawk chase a squirrel up a tree, flying impossibly tight spirals just on the squirrels tail. I looked away as they went still on opposite sides of the tree....about 2 feet apart....hawk waiting. Squirrel waiting.
Amber, we still hear big trees drop in the forest on windy days. BEEEG trees. And the saws and stump grinders are still busy. Always. The guy who cut my trees is busy giving expensive quotes to my friends and neighbors.....feels icky.
We're required to apply for one burning permits here.....have been on a burn ban. I'm glad I had those trees cut down.....had to be done. You're right.
Good luck getting your fire break right. It's scary when the fires are so close you can't see through the smoke. Once we got in the car to see if the fire was close.....very scary.
Lighter
lighter:
So, I'm sitting here at the dizzy clinic, in the waiting room......with a neighbor (who used to walk through my yard daily, but was cut off like everyone else.)
It's awkward.
lighter:
Saturday we were preparing food for company and I noticed G in her a grandma's back yard, which is sort of my back yard too.
I waved and my sister motioned her over, to pet the pug, but G stood frozen. My sister and pug walked to G....G said "I can't go to your house, bc my father doesn't trust you."
I haven't met the man, but I've heard him parent the children at the swingset. No sense of humor and without patience. Spankers trying to adopt G's 2 little brothers, same as they adopted her. Who names a child Damien? Who has a 9 yo doing large swaths of parenting young siblings 4yo and 3yo. ..like that? Damien 4yo is off the chain ...and a runner I think Dad's right not to trust me. I don't trust him.
Anyways, G asked her mum if she could come see us. My sister invited the mum too. G came over all questions and requests to meet my girls, busy playing computer games together. They didn't come out for an agonizing while....G was very eager.
In the meantime,needy guy's DD and her bf swung by.....bf showed G piano keys and his abilitie, very impressive. DD22 came down and G attached herself. DD22 went through extensive art supplies and music instruments with G.....selecting a hand painted by DD ukulele for G, freshly tuned, which she explained.
The mom came over and we exchanged numbers.... grandma's also.G came down later than my would have liked, and they went grocery shopping and home to make dinner. I guess Grandma was caring for the little brothers on her own. Seems G has Damien outside all the time while the adults have the calmer 3yo inside.... I've never even seen him, but the grandma wondered out loud how the parents would pay for the children if the second and third adoptions went through and foster money ends. Yikes.
G asked my sister about Karate forms and looked stricken when my sister said she wasn't me ...bc we're twins and unexpected switch caught G off guard....this was earlier, in the yard.
It's messy and seems likely to end in tears. I don't want to hear the mum's story. I didn't want to hear the grandma's entire story. They know I don't hit children and they know I know.....they do.
G chatters like a monkey about everything, open and childlike. She'll be chattering about art projects, martial arts and music lessons when talking about us and I can't handle Damien's energy. I don't want to, frankly. His care takes up all the air in the moment and G is practiced and patient with him. She easily sweeps me into her cadence of pretend rhino and entertaining Damien when she catches pug and me in a walk. They adore the pug.
I think G is wise and old beyond her 9 years. She's certainly starving for attention and time for herself. Who tells a 9yo there's no Santa, while younger siblings have Santa? Who tells a 9yo "it's time to grow up"? Esp a 9yo doing so much of the adult's parenting?
I need more sleep.
lighter:
Tree guy leaves for lake at 4am Tues morning with his crew. He said they intend to plant all 60 trees in 1 day, which seems optimistic to me.
Sister and I plan to have beds ready for many muddy exhausted men, should the need to stay over and skip the almost 2 hour drive home and 2 hour drive back.
Will feed them, as well.
Lighter
sKePTiKal:
If they're planting seedlings (1-2 ft) they will likely use a special planting tool that's easier than a spade and allows them to move right along. Depending on how many guys/gals on the crew they could be done in a few hours.
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