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Twoapenny:
--- Quote from: lighter on August 13, 2019, 07:47:55 PM ---Oh my.... releasing those expectations for where we thought we'd be, and what we thought we'd be doing, Tupp.
Yessssssss.
It's a gripping story, and can take up so much of our time, and focus... but it's just another story.
Those stories are rabbit holes, IME. All of them.
Lighter
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It is, isn't it? I've done it my whole life - always wanted to be doing something other than what I was doing, the one exception being University. Loved it and wish I could have stayed there forever. It's like a world within a world. So much nicer than this one :) But yes, focus on where we are and what we're doing, rather than what we think we should be doing. Because of not being good enough? Or because of the Western culture of consuming/achieving/status and so on (Western culture is on my mind a lot at the moment, I'm not really sure why). xx
Hopalong:
Even though they're not helping today, ((((Tupp))), don't give up on regular contemplation of your positive Truths.
The practice is cumulative, not instant. Don't measure it by any day, just over time.
Any time you need some more positive truths about yourself, say the word! I've got a hundred.
Hugs
Hops
lighter:
Sorry you're feeling down, Tupp.
Maybe keep healthy snacks by the bed.... nuts, good water, dried fruit, and shuffle into the kitchen for oatmeal, canned soup, whatever easy thing feels comforting to heat.
It's OK to have down time.
BTW did you have a chance to look at the link Hops left on the HAPPINESS thread?
I watched it today, and it's been so helpful today. I play it in the background, and notice how much better I feel when I manage to practice sitting or walking meditations, which isn't easy, or as often as I strive for. It's just such a relief when I do. I'm shocked I don't do it more often, and I discussed just that with T today
I think it's the pull of hypervigilance makes it so difficult to shift focus, and BE PRESENT.... it's like pulling myself out of very sticky taffy. There's a part of me that doesn't feel safe.... if I go inside and really LOOK at what's going on, I identify the feeling, and what's beneath just shows up, usually in a flood of emotion, and I feel.....
One more down..... It's a victory, really, and I wish my habits would shift already!
I hope you feel better soon, Tupp.
::sending you a cool refreshing breeze blowing through you::.
Lighter
Twoapenny:
--- Quote from: lighter on August 14, 2019, 07:03:57 PM ---Sorry you're feeling down, Tupp.
Maybe keep healthy snacks by the bed.... nuts, good water, dried fruit, and shuffle into the kitchen for oatmeal, canned soup, whatever easy thing feels comforting to heat.
It's OK to have down time.
BTW did you have a chance to look at the link Hops left on the HAPPINESS thread?
I watched it today, and it's been so helpful today. I play it in the background, and notice how much better I feel when I manage to practice sitting or walking meditations, which isn't easy, or as often as I strive for. It's just such a relief when I do. I'm shocked I don't do it more often, and I discussed just that with T today
I think it's the pull of hypervigilance makes it so difficult to shift focus, and BE PRESENT.... it's like pulling myself out of very sticky taffy. There's a part of me that doesn't feel safe.... if I go inside and really LOOK at what's going on, I identify the feeling, and what's beneath just shows up, usually in a flood of emotion, and I feel.....
One more down..... It's a victory, really, and I wish my habits would shift already!
I hope you feel better soon, Tupp.
::sending you a cool refreshing breeze blowing through you::.
Lighter
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Thanks, Lighter, I do feel better now :) I think it's still hormonal problems; slowly working through it all but it is improving. Just takes time to sift out the different threads, try different things, see what helps and what doesn't, and so on. Getting there! In a good hormonal phase at the minute and taking advantage of it by getting on with things, and will try to get in to see the acupuncturist during the next 'down' cycle to see if he can treat that as it happens (which would be great!).
Have tackled several files today, sorting through, taking out unnecessary paperwork and shredding it, re-organising what's left so it's easier to find and is in a more logical order. That felt good. Not being able to find things (indeed, just not knowing where things are) makes me feel stressed so it's dealt with a deal of that and that's good.
Read my emails after ignoring them for about ten days, I think. Mostly junk, one from a social worker which did set off an immediate reaction when I read it, but not before, which is in itself an improvement. Felt angry and frustrated almost instantly but calmed down quickly and have a plan in place now to deal with the situation (which isn't urgent and can just go on the to do list).
Tried a new tactic of motivating myself which was, "If we were moving house next week, what would I do today?". For some reason that really focused me, even though we are most definitely not moving house next week, nor any time soon! It's weird how you can kind of trick your own brain into working better? Odd. But anyway, for whatever reason, it worked, and instead of having a whole page of things to do today, I honed it down to absolute basics of food/take son out/yoga/take a nap/do paperwork/clean house. And it's kind of worked! I've organised a lot of paperwork today and I feel better for doing that (plus it will make what I do next easier and quicker). I've cleaned and tidied as I go, just little bits and pieces as I saw them but the house feels more organised and less cluttered as well. Funny how tricking yourself can be a good thing sometimes! Lol xx
lighter:
Tupp:
Brain doc said we burn through vitamin D like crazy when under stress, and it's difficult to build back up. You've been under a lot of stress for many years. Please make sure you have a good water soluble Vit D supplement as you likely have a deficiency. Both my girls and I have that problem.
Vit D deficiency messes with our hormones.
I'm glad you're feeling better, and knocking out tasks: )
Lighter
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