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Mindfulness and codependence thread
Hopalong:
Me too, Light!
I know I only got it in part, but glad it partly felt true.
Good enough for me.
big hugs,
Hops
lighter:
We had another happy evening at Karaoke. Thus time, both Dd's and a friend were there.? The cute boy came back. The Pug did not. He's the regular singer with a crush on DD20. She struggles with breaking out of the emotional support dog pattern women get shoved into. So far, so good. We're all working on it.
We snagged the only 4 seats on the dance floor. It was perfect for many reasons. DD20 is out of reach and dancing to 30 seconds of house music between songs is possible from that position.
Other patrons were amazing....every night has new people and this time there were high kicks, dramatic falling flat on the floor and everyone dancing tigetger many times. I spun DD20 around the floor to a Sinatra song.....just joyful and DD22 will sing with the friend next time. Can't wait.
Going to see The Nutcracker this weekend.
Lighter
sKePTiKal:
That sounds fun Lighter! I've never been to kareoke. And i don't go out much anymore because I have such a hard time these days with people failing to manage their own "stuff". But I miss dancing. Except when Buck whirls me around the porch to music that's playing in his head.
lighter:
I'm eating well. Today. Yesterday. Inflammation dropped away, like usual. Crazy, like alchemy.
The inflammation is never the point.
Neither is how my clothing fits or doesn't.
It's always about self care, feeling worthy and returning back to mindfulness practice, again and again, sans judgment.
It's those unconscious beliefs catching me flat footed, feeling trapped in old patterns and the truth is.....letting everything go is an option, even if I can't imagine or practice.
I can SEE it now. I've done it. Returned to it. See farther, more extreme change isn't just possible. It's available every moment and that goes in and out of focus......not gonna lie. It does and that's ok too.
During the trip to the island, my brother really looked me in the eye and pulled my focus away from workin/fixibg/DOING and it was really helpful......he pointed me at my girls, niece and nephew and reminded me time is fleeting.
I played more, spent one on one time with all the kids
and
I
played.
At the beach, in the cottage, on the boat, in the water and kitchen and it felt like choosing a different door all the time. It was good and I didn't people please or let self care go.
It's a balance, yup yup yup.
Acceptance.
The ability to be assertive.
Dropping judgment again and again.
Yes.
lighter:
I began working with a PT to deal with the scar tissue and fascia from the soft tissue injury....... the power returned but there was still some pain and it wasn't about my bones.
Immediately the pain was reduced and I hope the next couple sessions will restore pain free full motion with homework at home.
One thing the PT said was my body has contracted..... chest, arms, inward..... not about this injury.... something that happens over time. She wanted to know what I DO that might have caused that. I think it's from years living in a fighting stance... not sure, but ready to undo that and leave it behind.
When the PT and I stretch the injured arm, there's burning as the tissues stretch or whatever it is they're doing. Breaking apart, not sure, but anyone who's had a soft tissue injury should def deal with the scarring and fascia to restore full motion and relieve residual pain, bc it's a thing.
Lighter
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