This month marks 5 years since engaging my beautiful, fearless, clear eyed T. We briefly touched base after the hurricane and her kind words brought tears to my eyes.
On reflection....she put a banquet of skills and strategies before me....I picked and chose morsels and bits I could make sense of. Bits, but I sometimes had to manually (fig.) put aside unconscious beliefs to force space enough to pick up, carry and apply.... sometimes only for a short while.
I'm doing some review on this thread. So many personal pearls I want to revisit and handle again. Choose again, practice in a more peaceful headspace, bc I choose them...have success and knowledge how to weld them. Not choose bc I feel chased or pinned.
The night before the vertigo, one DD was in a bad headspace. I know my BP has to be up.....I likely wasn't drinking enough water....
there were people in my space creating tension and very little serenity....not knowing how bad things were at home ....discovering the destruction , loss of life and horror some people were dealing with.
The vertigo may be a confluence of the fall, tension, BP, dehydration, vitamin deficiencies and general ongoing stress.
And my lack of attention to my internal world.....inability to select and use tools from that beautiful banquet T set....is something I'd like to tend mindfully for a while.
I already texted Chiro friend. Will set up schedule.....try to figure out what's out of whack and remedy. Lengthening and shortening whatever's pulling things out of balance, yup yup yup.
ENT tomorrow. I hope he can provide helpful info.....along with clean ears.
Lighter
