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lighter:
We had rain....no snow.  Roads were fine.

Is your woodpile full?  Have you lit any fires yet, Amber?

It warms my heart to picture you baking and tending a cozy fire: )

Careful with'yer bad self on that ice.

Lighter

sKePTiKal:
Tending my downstairs fire, requires specifically timed trips up & down... it's a small firebox... and the recipes I'm working with require constant stirring until an exact temp is reached. So the 2 aren't compatible - except at certain stages of the process.

Hol came to help me shovel the deck so it didn't make ice below. She & Helga made tracks in the drive to the road; that was plowed. I took the ranger to the mailbox yesterday; pushed a little snow, but in 4x that little vehicle is an absolute BEAST of traction. Since it sips gas compared to all the other wheeled creatures here, it's worth it's weight in gold. We converged on the studio later to chew the fat & get a break from both our 4 walls. Had more snow that evening too. Feast of Saturnalia.  ;)

I missed a couple shop emails and immediately had that -- oh, now I feel like a total schmuck, worthless human creature reaction. But since it was late at night, I decided to just call in the call in the morning. Approval/decisions from me required - since my bro is once again awol and not in the loop about what's going on. I don't mind if he does that - but then, he is forfeiting his justification for being angry about not being consulted when decisions have to happen on the fly. I am not his secretary, required to brief him on situations he doesn't think are important enough to stay in contact with the shop or me about.

I CAN and DO have a much better work-life balance than I did years ago. But I am still on call 24/7 as the buck stops with me, in this position. I don't have to feel bad about having a life - and not ALWAYS on top of things. I am allowed to forget for a couple days that we have big things in progress.

And I've just kinda shut down the kitchen for a couple days - few more things to make for us but I am almost ready to pack & ship the long-distance boxes and deliver the local ones. It's warming up and the snow is evaporating - but the nights are cold enough to put ice on the ponds.

Buck has had a rough week; his kitten had a swollen leg and when he took her to the vet, he eventually diagnosed pneumonia and while they were starting medication, poor little thing started hemoraghaging and didn't make it. That night one of his older stray take-ins passed too. And I'm beyond frustrated that his Christmas present is backordered. I'm trying to get an ETA from this week.

sKePTiKal:
Kitchen Wench is back at it again... LOL as many boxes as I'm packing I may not have enough!

Hopalong:
I'm sorry about Buck's kitties, nothing sadder when the animal innocents suffer and go.

Happy for Kitchen Wench and happier for the recipients!

Hear you about the business squeeze, and some guilt there. I vote you're doing the best you can and mostly on your own. If you reassure them, I hope they'll take comfort all will be well or if not perfect, at least with a sound plan, in 2021.

Meanwhile you still get to enjoy this time. I've been green about the stillness of snow on a mountainside...it must be very extra beautiful right now.

Soak it in. The peace. Long may it last.

hugs
Hops

sKePTiKal:
Oh yes... soaking it in. This whole week there is no agenda; no plan. Well, except the kids are clearing snow at the hut so contractors can drop off garage trusses (other framing material is here) and the solstice/conjunction fire tomorrow.

And I'm finishing up packing goody boxes; couple to take to post office tomorrow -- they won't get there by Christmas, but people still gotta eat after. A couple things for the kids to wrap... their big present (besides a house & garage) is going to be a greenhouse... which hasn't been ordered yet. Hol needs to consult her buddy about heating/cooling options so it can be a year-round growing space.

Buck is back to his nightowl ways; last txt was after 3 am. Just woke up. Me, I'm sleeping long... moving at a comfortable pace... thinking about seeds, growing space/equipment for me, orchard trees, etc...and maybe buying myself a couple presents.  ;)  I don't seem to be craving as much rip van winkle time -- but it just seems to be what happens when it doesn't get light until 8 am and gets dark by 5.

Not reading anything serious. Tuning out all the noise online. Playing around with a new circle of acquaintances with woo-stuff... but not seriously. Almost ready to break out the planning book... get the contractor on notice about metal shed... see what Buck needs that I can help with... to get him here. All told, things turned out OK at the business. We're still in the black; barely. Everyone is getting a full paycheck and has good health insurance paid for by co. They got Christmas bonuses; less than previously... but these days, that's doing pretty damn good. 

I'll scry the crystal ball and future predictions later; AFTER the solstice/conjunction - because the massive change has to start before I will be able to have any inkling of which way it's going to go. Right now, too many big question marks out there and unknowns and stuff intentionally hidden... unless you know what you're looking for and where to look.
One thing I can say with certainty: this is the year we kick it up a notch developing the farm... working on ideas for income and get a better plan organized.

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