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Hopalong:
Will do, Bettyanne--and you stay safe too!
(We will want to hear in a couple years all about your HAPPY 80th Birthday, you know.)
San Francisco is so beautiful, and the Pacific NW just stunning. I hope you get back to Seattle/Bainbridge Island soon, and on the way will soak up some scenes from a car (or train) that fill your mind with peace. I'll never forget my first trip through Oregon about 7-8 years ago. Driving from Eugene over to and then up the coast was unforgettable. It was the first state I'd ever been in that I knew on sight I could love as much as my East Coast home. Those forests! Elk!
Sorry you have to wait through this weird pandemic winter, but this too shall pass.
Hugs
Hops
Meh:
I'm tired. I've not got much more to say then that. One description a person used to describe Covid was Russian Roulette. It does feel that way.
Bettyanne:
Well HOPS I wish it would end soon......but then we gotta take a chance on a Vaccine??
My oldest daughter is a research Chemist......I should ask her what she thinks.....probably the same as the rest of us....waiting to see what happens next
I am here with Meghan and she has cystic fibrosis and she also is a therapist working from her apt and not going to her office because of the COVID......
It's amazing how you think things would be so different in 2020.......but we lucky to have the pharmaceutical companies working hard to get us all a cure????
Hops I can't wait to go home.......my personal problem with going home is no Bill my husband and I miss him so so much......I will cry now.......He saved my life as a kid at age 16 when I met him.....He was always so good to me. We both had problems growing up with immature parents etc etc etc
It's so good to have this place to come and write anything we please and express ourselves.
My mother was so controlling growing up and I realized I couldn't say much and held most of it in because she was incharge......on the story goes on and on.......Im worn out by it now......
I wish I could have a magic wand to help us all on here.......but maybe on here is a little bit of magic that we all found this site.......I need to be grateful to you all......
Bettyanne...xoxo
sKePTiKal:
Oh my dear... you'll just cry until you've cried it all out... and one day, you'll wake up and realize you're not crying anymore; and you won't want to shed another tear (but don't count on that). All that grief has been put aside while you lived your life as best you could, for a time when you could give it, it's due - when you could honor what you've lived through. You care about all you've felt, all these years... and the crying over it is the start of finally healing it.
It's like an abscess that needs to be drained of infection before it can heal.
(((((Bettyanne)))))
Hopalong:
A one-note symphony would lose meaning.
Great symphonies have four movements. Themes, harmonies, drama, emotion, movement, and contemplation weave in and out of them. The big movements are generally:
First (fast, lively)
Second (slower, lyrical)
Third (dance-like)
Fourth (rousing, a review)
I think of the first as like a toddler crawling 90 mph as s/he learns her strength, developing faster than at any time in life.
The second like a child learning to read, find out what thinking is like, exploring its own mind and the world.
The third like a dance of maturity, a longer form, as children or work add complexity and structure.
The fourth like a review of themes that entered the symphony in the first movement. It can be intense and say the same thing over and over -- this is what it meant, here it is again, listen to so much meaning here, hear more deeply than ever
I think of grief as like a symphony, too. It has stages and different speeds, intensities and sounds.
Bettyanne, maybe this grief for Bill is part of your life symphony. I think your themes deserve whatever time you need to play them, and crying is one of the sounds an instrument can make as it contributes to the whole experience. And Bill is one of the most powerful themes throughout.
Your symphony could never be the beautiful, meaningful whole it is without the violin -- which both cries AND sings.
This was very clumsy but hope you follow my drift.
hugs
Hops
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