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Hopalong:
Hi G,
Thanks for this question!

--- Quote ---If you have focusing challenges/ADD then how is it that you are such a good writer? It's just curiosity on my part. Does the focus problem have any impact on your writing at all?
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There's an odd "gift within the problem" for some with ADD, called hyperfocus. For something that interests me....mainly writing....I can focus like a fiend. My brain locks on, everything else (such as opening mail or tidying the kitchen!) fades into unimportance. It's an odd thing but it's real. I got a Teaching Fellowship for my M.A. at an "elite" university, and that's nearly unfathomable to me. But it happened because I would sink SO deeply into language. Once it got to poetry, it all came together and evidently worked.

I connected to this too:

--- Quote ---Even when there is a lot of time it can feel like I am still skimming the surface of my life.
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I said to my dear earlier T, for EIGHT YEARS:
"I have lost interest in my own life."

I finally stopped asking myself why I felt it and faced that it was pure depression talking (plus grief over my lost daughter and family). Once I just starting calling it a symptom of depression, very slowly my interest in my own dreams began to return. It'll be a while and it's been long and slow, but I realized at some point that because I felt that way for one long period, there is no reason at all to believe that I have to feel that way forever. Therapy and endurance and loving connections with people eventually pulled me out of the depths of it. It comes back sometimes, but not like the deep gray thing it was.

Hugs
Hops

Meh:
Is hyper focus only with writing?

Hopalong:
Anything creative, really.
It could be drawing or making something...though I don't do much of those any more.

It's 90% with writing (or editing).

Hugs
Hops

Meh:
I'm so tired. Watching a video about Jacques Derrida and the narrator says: "Love is Narcissistic."  Then of course I must come deposit it here, in a compulsive, oh no, please don't make me analyze this right now sort of way.

I have to save it for later, not like a candy bar, instead more like a rotten thing in the refrigerator. I don't want to think about it but I know I must think about it eventually I will have to. It's annoying me right now even but I need to conserve some sort of focus and concentration.

Hopalong:
Ahhh, well.
You don't have to believe that narrator/scriptwriter.

Safely parked here until/if you want to revisit.

Meanwhile, good to hear your voice, G.

You've been missed.

hugs
Hops

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