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cats paw:
Hops,

 I might be more out of practice than I thought with written communication, so to be clear, I was not asking to PM.  I was thinking of it as a review tool, both for myself, and if you were so inclined as well, since my username didn't seem to ring a bell, it being so long ago.  There were many difficult interactions on the board at the time, and I was so wanting to be a peacemaker.  If I recall, you were kind to me in a PM back then. Now I'm curious if memory serves, so one of these days I'll see if its reviewable.

 I've read your thread about M. I held my breath at many times during the reading. So many lovely experiences during that time, but you heeded the turbulence, so I'm glad you steadied your landing gear. Pooch sounds lovely, and there is potentially a new friend in the wings.  I know it's still painful, though. Loss is loss, even with what is gained.

 Thanks for saying "talk about it all you like at any length".

Hugs and Hope back at Ya

Hopalong:
Thanks much, CP (that abbreviation okay? Dunno why I'm so lazy...)
I didn't take it as you asking to PM and to review those made good sense. I'm really glad I was kind and I promise I'll always try to be. First principle of posting!

You really are going through a quiet hell. I hope being here again will give you strength. It has saved my heart and my sanity more times than I can count.

All you can do is start where you are now, and you've decided to raise your voice and speak about your struggle. That's so vital and I hope it will help you find more strength and peace in the middle of everything.

And thank you for the sympathy over M. It was a trial but I don't regret it at all. Not only the adventures I got to experience, but the genuine effort we both put in...were worthwhile. Only okay in the long run because I accepted that interacting with him was not spacious enough for my emotional safety in too many ways. But I'm grateful for the experience and still very fond of him. I don't think he intended to be so stressful for me, and I have compassion for his stuff too. Perhaps we'll discover we can be friends later on, but either way I'm very grateful I came to realize a lifetime commitment would be damaging in the long run. I'm much better. Free. And not giving up on the dream!

hugs
Hops

cats paw:
Hops-

 CP is fine. I don't know who monikered me Kitty first, but I remember being called Kitty Paw, Cat, Kitty etc.  I usually sign as cp or Cat. No worries.

 I hadn't reviewed yet when I wrote the previous post. I did review a little yesterday, and at first I wished I hadn't. To say there were difficult interactions on the board is quite the understatement. But in my PM's there was abundant kindness and encouragement. 

 Glad you are able to "Hold fast to dreams".

cp


 

Hopalong:
Thanks, CP.

I'm not reviewing the "old days" on the board because it takes me a lot of reminding to be present and look forward. But if it were meaningful to me to do that I surely would. (What I have done at times is review long threads of my own on key things in my life, and it's been like a huge journal. Very helpful for perspective as the years go by.)

I can also say that ever since Doc G closed the board after those tumultuous times, it's been for me an oasis of comfort, wisdom and sanity. With a painful politically-driven exception that seems to go recede after brief condemnatory appearances. I've learned when I have nothing new to offer and can just redirect myself. (Though it must be obvious that I think I have a shareable opinion on nearly everything! SUCH a talker....)

hugs
Hops

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