Lighter - I'm having a slow morning, in the cool. It's been a taxing couple of days in abominable heat. To follow along your observation... I'm beginning to think that psychological projection is the native tongue among the younger set. They slip into it willy-nilly sans awareness of what they're doing. I have definitely noticed same from time to time in Hol -- and in turn, she's noticed that (painfully) in S.
They've been separated due to work for a couple of weeks now. And her perspective is shifting in some big ways. B has made himself absent from some of our group time together; allowing Hol & I to get into those more personal topics. But she is behaving herself; owning her feelings and observations or discernment; and I am mostly just posing questions to her - and allowing that there may not be a certain answer, for now. Hol even called B a friend last night while babbling on, like she does. They do have a lot of interests in common, after all.
She's still working out trust issues for herself. What it means; what it feels like; and how that kinda helps with boundaries.
B and I have spent most of the past 2 days on the road. Dr's office required him to hand deliver paperwork referral orders to an infectious disease doc.... we drove to the address on the paperwork and the building was empty; locked; for lease. There is no direct phone line into 1st doc's office. One calls the switchboard, leaves a message and call back number... and waits. We had a number of places to go and pick up items for various projects going on. So the first thing I did was completely scrap the order in my head we were going to do things and flip the stops around -- beginning with a quick lunch. I was getting hangry and of course he was thinking that he was getting the short end of the stick all around AGAIN. With no recourse.
More phone calls and wrong information until we FINALLY got the phone and location of referral doc. In another town, in another part of my state. That's where we went yesterday. Easy to find; 5 minutes - in/out - clear, correct information taken and given... EASY. Then we had to backtrack the routes again to get a couple items and deliver some stuff to Hol for this weekend's campfire gathering.
So, we're hoping that he'll have the consult with referral doc this coming week. He HAS to get back and can only extend his rental one week. But the earliest MRI appt he could get was the end of October. A couple months from now. Contractor is trying to get the floor poured in the shop and the roofer was here this morning for me to pick out metal color.
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B said during all those previous years, no one ever went with him on the hundreds of medical appts or surgeries. Ever. I simply said, well I CARE, so I'm going with you. He is making "man piles" around the house - but he has clothes in his dresser and the closet. Tools in my garage and barns. He's sealing a leak in Hol's car's cooling system this morning... and will show her how to recharge a/c too. He'll cook. Brings me coffee in the morning. (There was a bit of prompting about that... but it's sweet he does that little thing for me. He feeds my kitties in the morning.
We fit together so well it's as if we've trained together for years and now already anticipate each other's thoughts and actions. There isn't any angst either; we're very relaxed. He is sleeping longer and deeper; I've been able to adjust his eating schedule/portions such that it's helping with his heartburn. The herbal antibiotic is helping too.
I'm tired, but I'm happy. I simply can't keep up with the man physically. He has to keep moving and working (within reason) to keep himself loose and relatively painfree. We're even making "dates" for our own private time... to just be us together and that is something new for me; it builds happy anticipation. And the rest of the time, it's like we've been together for years & years. Comfortable.
