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Educator abuse- "a new sense of self"
Hopalong:
Hey Sea,
So good to see your name again.
I too would love a new Sea-thread, to hear all about how you are and how you're doing.
Catch us up? Still doing Japanese stuff sales?
Daughter? Friends? Health? Nature around you?
What's working? What's not?
I'd really love to hear.
Big hugs,
Hops
Meh:
Writing for myself here:
A thought has occurred to me from time to time how this board is not private, anybody can come and look at people's posts, lots of stuff on here ends up being about people's daily lives, relationships, feelings, struggles etc.
I'm definitely considering not being on the board because I'm trying to feel out how I relate to people and who I relate to. I'd much prefer having more close friends in my life. Social media is complicated to say the least.
My psycho instructor had literally written to me that he "wanted to hear my voice." He wrote this while at the same time doing thought reform. It's part of the reason I freaked out so badly about the class, one of many reasons.
Sometimes I barely have time to come here, I now have so much work to keep up with. I deleted my Facebook account a few months ago and I don't miss it one bit. I guess when people keep up with Facebook, Twitter and so forth they are in a way keeping their finger on the pulse of popular opinion.
More now than ever I want real friends, real family and also privacy.
So it's my passing thought for the moment. There is so much internet faux-community and maybe people find themselves participating in it without asking themselves how did I get here, do I want to be here etc. Is there some other outlet that would be better for me.
Right now I don't feel like I have much of a personal outlet. I feel like a brain with blisters on it. A disembodied brain tasked with appearing to be smart or something, in the egotistical academic landscape; a character that doesn't fit me. I'm going to make the best of that if I can.
Hopalong:
That's such a clear, eloquent post, Mouse.
I hope you stick around.
But I understand that from time to time even regulars can feel less motivated to be here.
Personally, I'd be buried with my laptop on my chest before I bail, but I am a needy person. (Even wrote Doc G instructions of who to check with if I don't appear for a month. He has my okay to contact a close friend IRL for a well-being update so if I've croaked or had become unable to "compute" he could let y'all know.)
LOL but also, ahhhh.
hugs
Hops
Meh:
So it's 3:00 am.
I am contemplating "stuff" and I have much to say about it but I will probably not put it here.
Next week, I may be making a handful of official complaints about my school that are outside what I would normally do. In fact I've never complained about a school before, I've never wanted to but now it's practically inevitable.
Meh:
I forgot what I was doing, something, something, hmmm nope don't remember what it was, so here I am.
An investigation with a state agency is initiated related to my school junk. Not sure where that is going to go. I've also been contemplating getting a lawyer. It's not exactly a route I feel enthusiastic about and yet it feels like the right thing to do somehow.
Never would I have imagined ending up needing to do this. The road in life is an unpredictable one.
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