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Hopalong:
Just want to add one word that has struck me strongly about you, Mouse, ever since first reading you....fwiw, I take it literally/seriously.

See it, hear it, sense it.

Creative.

hug
Hops

Twoapenny:
For what's it worth, Mouse, I've always thought that 'sensitive' is a really nice compliment.  I think, unfortunately, in this cut throat world of madness that we live in, 'sensitive' people often get caught under the bus so I think for many it does take a negative connotation.  But I think we desperately need more sensitive, artistic, creative people and far fewer mass producing crap in factories where no-one gets paid much.

Maybe the world seemed like a very violent place when you were a child and that's why it's linked with your inner child when you think about that.  I know I never felt safe as a child and to me the world, and the people in it, have always been very scary, even if they weren't violent or openly nasty.  I just never met many that were nurturing or secure enough in themselves to put a child's needs first.

I have a similar obsession with serial killer documentaries and true crime shows.  I think it's two things with me - there's always a hero cop in these programmes, the one who puts in all the extra hours, notices the clues other people don't, makes it a personal cause - and they get their man.  So it's someone who cares (I don't feel like I got that) and justice is served (I didn't get that, either).  So it kind of feels like I'm watching other people get what I didn't.  For some reason I find that helpful.  I also have a thing, I think, where if I can recognise abusive behaviour, I can keep myself away from it.  Almost feels a bit instructional. I do think I watch too much of it and there are times when I make myself switch if off because it's probably not good for my brain to watch too much.  Maybe there is something in the cult/brainwashing thing that reminds you on some level of things in your past and it's a way of trying to learn more or understand it all better.  I feel like I got out of a cult when I got away from my mum and when I watch documentaries about that sort of thing it is amazing how so often it's a charasmatic person who slowly chips away at people until they lose themselves and just do what they're told is best.  It does send chills down your spin.  I think you're a good egg, Pseudo Mouse, whether there's some kind of diagnosis to dig into or not xx

Meh:
Hiya, Hops,

Yes, I've been called created a lot too.


--- Quote from: Twoapenny on June 03, 2021, 04:37:38 AM ---
Maybe the world seemed like a very violent place when you were a child and that's why it's linked with your inner child when you think about that.  I know I never felt safe as a child and to me the world, and the people in it, have always been very scary, even if they weren't violent or openly nasty.  I just never met many that were nurturing or secure enough in themselves to put a child's needs first.


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Two, I think you make a really good point here about if a child feels safe or not, and how that could make the world "scary." I had not quite thought of it that way.

Meh:
I know Narcissists are basically the bad guys so I think y'all are opposed to the idea in a way.

I like to pick through my garbage. I really think there is an odd quality of my identity being fragile and protective. It's really insulting to me when someone wants to change or access my identity in any way but I guess that might be a normal reaction also, still it feels threatening.

Rosie glasses aren't my thing, I do really get that framing things positively is more motivating or useful for some people and it also sometimes looks like a form of denial.
 

Hopalong:
I'm really into the strength of "reality is my friend."

I'm equally into the strength of "the possibility of good things happening."

The balancing of these can get screwed up, but life IS both.

Hops

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