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Bettyanne:
I need to correct something.  I misspelt  a word.......I was put in a all girl school at age 9, run by nuns and everything was about silence.  And how you sat in your chair in the class room.  It was awful I hated it, truly hated it and my bitch of a mother would not let me out of this situation at all.......it was like I was a bad girl and I needed to be in a reformatory school.....that's what I thought of the school....I graduated from 8th grade to the 9th within the same grounds the high school existed.  I hated it too...I felt like life was about being obedient to nuns all the time......anyway I graduated from the Catholic High School....all girls all girls.......So I had a retarded brother at home and craziness that never ended. 
I finally met a boy and his name Was Bill and I called him Billy......the best thing that ever happened to me. 
My mother was a control freak.....I really don't know what my dad saw in her?????????????????????????
She was only nice when she was doing what she wanted..........As I said before my dad dies at 51 and my mother at almost 101......
The sad part was she could me in her spiders nest........doing things for her.......I won't continue to go on about her but I realize now that was it.........I was caught and so was my husband Bill .......doing things for her...
That was my mistake and the biggest one of my life......today at age 78 I see it and know it was true....
I think I had bad counseling because I should have been told to get away from her early on........
I see and know it myself today......
Life teaches us lessons..

Bettyanne:
I meant to say Thank you for all your kindness in responding........to me.
Bill truly was the best thing to happen to me after losing my dad......my retarded brother and my grandmother up and down about her.
My mother was truly a sicko........she was never really a mother to me. 

Trying to put  her to side now........life wasn't easy with my so called mother........she put me in day care after giving birth to me......so five years.......day care......two years first grade.....no kindergarten as it didn't fit her work schedule.
 and you know the rest above.

Bill and I had six children.........again she interfered.......

Bill was the best thing to ever happen to me........we loved each other and I still love him so much

Thanks.........Bettyanne

Phyll:
Oh Bettyanne.  Such a sad childhood.  Your Mother was very sick, and then to be controlled by Nuns.   Thank God for Bill coming into your life.  I see how you miss him so. Are your six children in your life? 

Bettyanne:
Hi........
Some are move involved then others.........but I am grateful to have them.....I think my mother was a self centered individual but to be her daughter was awful......I guess I learned early on not to say much back to her because she would take it out on me.  I don't think she should have ever married or had children......she was so off and working seem to be the only thing that made her somewhat sane??? if you want to call her that!!!!! to being so so self centered.....

I honestly don't know how my father did living with her......it was her way or the highway......old saying......omg

He died when he was 51 and I often think God took him to get him away from her??? my retarded brother died a few days before I got married.......and her mother a month after I was married.......she was mad a me again and said I had my husband and she had nobody........omg what did I have to do with them dying?? 
She was a bitch as far as I was concerned.......but she had me hooked as I look back on it now.........for the next 35 years my husband who she hated drove her on weekends to a shrine, where she made money for them.........they praised her for doing this......at age 100 almost 101 she died....in 2012.....
I now she how controlled I was by her.......since birth........I could go on and on......its what I do now since my dear husband died that needs to be better then my past with her.....
I will say here she was nice to my six children I call it being a real fake.......and awful to me,,,nice when she wanted something.......
OMG what a lesson I learned...........big time......
Love and thank you all for your kindness here .........
Bettyanne xoxo

Bettyanne:
Just adding here: her birthday was Friday the 13, of September 1911.........
I think that tells it all??

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