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Twoapenny:

--- Quote from: sKePTiKal on June 16, 2024, 12:18:01 PM ---When B isn't laid low with pain, frustration isn't besetting him re: the inanities of modern life... and we can make up our own daily agenda as we please.

It's cool in the early mornings now, dew sparkles in the leaves with the first rays of sunlight. 1000 different birds greeting the day... and the porch kitties trying to stalk the birds. (They haven't figured out the birds can fly yet!)

Yeah. It's peaceful and not a negative word is being heard... my kind of joy.

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That does sound really lovely, Skep :)  I did notice today - and I think it's a sign that my brain is changing - that I was in the car waiting for my son and sending an email before he came out.  Usually what I hear in my head when I do that sort of thing is my own brain chatter and it blocks everything else out.  But today I could hear the river, a bird and a dog panting as he ran past.  The rest of my brain had calmed down, i was doing the email but not consumed with a million questions or possible problems around it.  That was nice.  Did laugh when two minutes later the dog's owner came panting past as well, he'd slipped his lead and she was having to chase him :) Peaceful, is the thing, isn't it?  A lack of the unwanted and you can appreciate what you want more easily.  I like the sound of that x

Twoapenny:

--- Quote from: lighter on June 16, 2024, 03:12:30 PM ---What an amazing view of what's behind your patterns, Tupp.  Extraordinary to follow your history and see the why's and how's of your escape into joy.

I think my zealous enjoyment of Halloween ties directly to my parents involvement and joy with us, as children.  The simplest H decorations spark joy and send me right back into childhood moments.  I love it.

So glad to read you're dancing in the kitchen and noticing joy!

You're pretty amazing.  What's next?

Lighter

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It's like things you've talked about before, Lighter, how things are just slipping away.  I've always felt resistance inside me, to everything.  There's a problem, there's an issue, I'm not doing it right, someone else isn't doing it right, should I speak, should I stay quiet, should I do this, should I do that.  Constant brain traffice.   And it's just calming down.  Felt myself getting stressed about something we were doing earlier, stopped and though, are we doing it the wrong way?  Is there a different way to do this?  Because what we were actually doing was not the task I thought it to be before we started.  So we changed it around, did it a different way and it was fine.  A lot of the time I get so stuck in that 'you're doing it wrong' loop that I can't get outside it.  Like those vortex things they have at the swimming pool.  But it's just dropping away.  Not gone, but greatly reduced.  It's nice going through the day without feeling like i'm not doing it right, you know?

Twoapenny:

--- Quote from: Hopalong on June 16, 2024, 05:17:22 PM ---Practically any sensate moment shared with an animal.
The day my daughter was given to me after the Casesarian.
Music, like symphonies or incredible choral or vocal work.
Silliness; goofy talk.
Holiness of snow (said the agnostic).
True surprises (rare) - unexpected flowers. Kindness.
Peace. Not as exciting as joy but I like it more.
Children. Their imaginations and openness.

hugs
Hops

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Yes to all of those, Hops :)  Funny that you and Skep both said peace, it's an important one, isn't it?  Just calm and quiet and nice.  I like it :)

sKePTiKal:
In my case it's the peace (and slow living mentality) that opens up the space for joy to settle in. I don't have to fill every second of every day's full 5 senses worth of brain input or let my worry or concern chew on anything every second. I can just just BE. It feels good and seems restorative and creative and sometimes joyful.

lighter:
I do know, Tupp.  As I write this I'm sitting on the deck under cloud cover, pondering how to fix a problem.  Water pressure gone, but I think that'll be resolved this afternoon with new parts for pump.



I've been angry at Home Depot and struggling for solution
BUT
If I calm down and let it be, sans judgement, clarity and solutions begin presenting themselves. 
I can hear the birds and feel the breeze.  I'm safe.  I'll relax into solutions

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