Hello Everyone:
Portia:
Individual humans and their sameness and specialness: people who are open to life.
Great stuff to ponder P! Each individual but similar soul. Yes. I think so too.
Hi Izzy and Ami: Just reading your discussion on fear:
Disconnected can mean the same as dissociation--re cut off from one's self and feeliings.
I think people sometimes do cut themselves off from really strong feelings. It's a way of coping eh? What helps me with fear is to tell myself that "fear is just a feeling. (so is joy. so is sorrow). I don't have to die from fear or even let it be in charge. I can feel it and let it go. I can ignor it, if I have to. I can use it to fuel my anger, in an emergency (life threatening) or I can express it, without falling off the face of the earth. The big thing is......fear is there to alert me."
All of these things help me in dealing with fear....once I realize I'm afraid!! I have trouble picking it out sometimes. Sometimes, I just think I feel one thing, when really, I'm feeling something else (for instance, with that sales lady--if you happened to read that thread--I thought I just felt really angry but later realized, I did feel some fear but it seemed less intense than the anger). Sometimes one trumps another eh? Weird, I guess.
Ps: Iz, that was a lovely poem about dancing. Wonderful images!
Hey TT: Your mom's
big pot full of turnip greens, and turnip roots flavored with bacon.
gave me a giggle. For some reason, I immediately pictured "Granny", from the Beverly Hillbillies, with a wooden spoon, stirring that pot and announcing that she would also be serving: "Possum innards"!!
Heehee.
It's touching how your mom shows love by cooking and things. So nice that you appreciate her/it.
Wow MS! Isn't it amazing the stuff children will think up to explain the unexplainable (stuff they have no explanation for)? I remember as a child, having an injury to my forehead where I was taken to hospital for stitches and all I could picture was a giant sewing machine coming down on my head, over and over, until it was all stitched up! I was so terrified, all I could do was cry over and over: "I don't wanna needle! I don't wanna needle!!" (I was 3). Poor little guy in your story......must have worried his mum might have him for lunch sometime!!
Hiya Really! How's it goin'?
Hey Ho Hops:
Loved reading your post Sela...tell more about the cabin sometime!
Ok. Thanks so much for asking.
I love our cabin. It's located just where, what I call, ....where the rocks start....about an hour and a half drive NE of where I live, here in the country, in Southern Ontario. Our river is located in what seems to be the last really not-very-populated area (yet) of Ontario......as if it's beauty was somehow......missed or ignored. I guess the lakes and rivers straight north are more profuse and most farm land disappears, so that might be part of it. Near our cabin, you can find a 50 foot rock cut and just a mile down the road....a lumpy but still operable farm. There are plenty of wild animals and lot's of hunting, in the fall, so one has to be careful about tramping around in the bush.
Our place is tiny and we like it that way because it's easy to maintain and clean and doesn't cost much to keep going either. We are on a bend in the river, which is about 100 feet from our shore to the other....one of the wider spots on the river. And it's 16 feet deep at the end of our dock, so it's absolutely lovely swimming! It stays deep for about 1/4 mile in both directions (N and S), so we can swim for 1/2 a mile without touching bottom (which I have an aversion to my toes getting mixed up with whoever lives down there!). Many people, however, go up to the top of our river and float down, sometimes with coolers, on tire tubes, wearing crazy hats and sometimes hootin' and hollerin' and havin' a great old time!! I haven't been brave enough yet to try it, although my hubby does coax me.
Across the river is a 365 acre farm, which is mostly bush but the cows do come down occasionally, for a drink. When we first bought the place, I had no idea there were cows over there and one dark night I heard a branch crack and shined my flashlight over there....saw two eyes spaced approximately bear-like appart, saw a big, dark body behind the eyes and decided it must be a bear! I was facinated at the thing, which which was obviously as facinated with me because it stood there and kept looking at me. I was calling the kids: "Come look! It's a bear!!". After awhile, I moved my flash light a few feet left, then right, then behind the eyes and infront of the eyes and realized there was a whole heard of bears!! Until my daughter called out: "Moooooooooo!" and was promptly answered by the same exclamation, I was not convinced that those were not bears at all!!
After that ......there was a lot of fun made of me for spotting those bear slash cows!! Yep! I'm an expert!!
Anyhow.......our place is lovely, imo, and private. We have just over an acre and can't be seen from the road and our nearest neighbour is about 500 feet on either side (and they live there year round so I feel like I'm isolated but help is very nearby. Wonderful neighbours to boot!).
I grew up going to a lake and wasn't sure I'd like being on a river but I have since decided I like it better. The water never gets that awful white foam on it, that the lakes does occasionally, nor does it very often stand still...thus no accumulation of algae and plankton and stuff. The river always flows, sometimes gently, sometimes fierce and it's as if it has a life of it's own. Amazing to watch sometimes. In the summer, it is much warmer than I ever thought possible ....very comfy....like a bathtub!!
And the river twists and turns and is wonderful to canoe in and not many boats come past us because the river gets shallow further up and the boats can't get past (which we like because we really are not into boats because of the pollution they cause). Plus.......we have seen so much wildlife...it is truly like a gift from God himself!! My Hubby took 40 some pictures of a sweet doe and her fawn, one day, while sitting on our deck watching them right across the river. We've seen mink and otter, beaver gallor, all kinds of turtles and snakes (but no mudpuppies!), ducks and geese, even the loon makes an appearance, every so often. We've had porcupines, skunks, bears, cats, you name it....visit us and the birds!! Profuse!! I love the blue heron.....watching them step along the shore.....fishing. And once.....I saw an Eagle!! I think he was just passing through because he landed in a tree, ofcourse, across the river, and he just sat there, while I watched for an hour and a half. Then off he went, never to be seen again. When I looked in our wild life books I found this to be the correct time of year for him to stop for a rest as he migrated. Cool!~!
I love it there!! It's truly a peaceful and gorgeous little spot and I feel blessed to be able to go there and never want to leave, once I'm there. It feels like a part of me now and I hope we can hold onto the place for the kids because the cost to purchase waterfront property is so high now, I doubt they will ever be able to afford it.
Here's an old song that says it all, by a lady named: Jenny Lester
There's a place in the north where you still see the moon shine
When the morning sun is high
It's a place mother nature takes all her children
None are more willing than I.
Sitting on rocks
Down by the river
Feeling the powers that be.
You can howl at the moon
Or wade the deep waters.........
There's no place that I'd rather be.
Just the river, mother nature and me.
If you listen at night time, you'll hear her heart beating.
It's a rythmn that lulls me to sleep.
If I wake in the city, I'll dream of the river.
It's a feeling that I want to keep.
Sitting on rocks
Down by the river
Feeling the powers that be.
You can howl at the moon.......
Or wade the deep waters..........
There's no place that I'd rather be.
Just the river, mother nature and me.
If your heart needs healing.......go down by the river
And quietly sit on the shore.
You'll feel her run through you.....to mend and renew you.....
You'll feel life like never before!!
Sitting on rocks
Down by the river
Feeling the powers that be.....
You can howl at the moon........
Or wade the deep waters..............
There's no place that I'd rather be.
Just the river, mother nature and me.
Just the river, mother nature and me.
Sela
