Good news ...

[Sallying Forth]

I finally got my first reliable vehicle since I've been married. This is my own car and is big enough for another big puppy.    

Yesterday I went to church on my own. I haven't been in ages because of many things but number one was reliable transportation. I hadn't been to that church in 1.5 years. I left because I needed to write my books.

I did have a strange dream in the morning just before I woke up. It was about going to a church which was a small chapel in the woods near a lake. Behind the chapel a new path had been made to the lake. The path was lined with beautiful flowers and near young fir trees. The path was made of a white rock which sparkled in the sunlight.

Inside the chapel were all my former pastors which I had liked. We all sat around reminiscing about the past. Then I finally said I needed to move onto something new. I said good-bye to each of them and walked out the back door onto the new sparkling white path.

When I answered one of the questions in the book When Hope Can Kill, I realized that my true self's symbol is a river tumbling over rocks and boulders. In my dream I can hear that river.


At first I thought this dream was about going back to the church I had left. However now I believe it is about going to a different church. I shall know for sure in the coming weeks. I am definitely going to trust my intuition on this and see where this leads me.

[mum]

What a beautiful dream and a vision to hold onto.  Congrats on the car (I remembering measuring the backs of station wagons to make sure the dogs would fit!!)

[October]

I did have a strange dream in the morning just before I woke up. It was about going to a church which was a small chapel in the woods near a lake. Behind the chapel a new path had been made to the lake. The path was lined with beautiful flowers and near young fir trees. The path was made of a white rock which sparkled in the sunlight.

Inside the chapel were all my former pastors which I had liked. We all sat around reminiscing about the past. Then I finally said I needed to move onto something new. I said good-bye to each of them and walked out the back door onto the new sparkling white path.

I agree with mum; this is a lovely dream to have.  I wish I could have one like that!!   

[write]

now go on- and find and live your dream

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[mum]

Well, just had to add more good news!  My son just got a HUGE scholarship for college. He thought his audition stunk, but obviously he was being a little tough on himself!!!  It's truly his dream come true, as it is the ONLY place he wanted to go to study music.   Senior year hasn't even started yet, and now he not only knows where he wants to go to school, but that he got in, and that it will be paid for!!!  YAHOOOOO!!!!!

[Sallying Forth]

The thing about the car for me is two-fold. I didn't mention this in my first post.

I haven't had my own car which I picked out since twenty years ago. This is my first.

And second I've suffered from PTSD, panic attacks, anxiety and depression for about 17 years, so I haven't been able to drive. If I would drive by myself for anything over 5 miles, I'd see things on the side of the road which weren't there and have flashbacks so horrible I'd feel faint or dizzy or numerous others problems would arise. However on Monday I drove by myself on a 140 mile round trip without one darn symptom. I actually enjoyed myself!   That hasn't happened for about twenty years. I felt free to be myself. Free to choose where to go, when to go, what to do. It was a very good day, very good day.