Hi ITexperiment! Thanks for reply. I thought I did get it- maybe didn't state my query in more comprehensive way.
Your inquiry was puzzling.
My real thing was I personally don't focus on labels and I guess I am concerned this is your identity, the way you define yourself and I know you're much more than your label!
Except you did not communicate your real thing. You expressed something else which I have yet to even grasp. Perhaps judgment of what I am doing with my life?
Concerned this is your identity? That is not the way you came across and is still not the way you are coming across (to me).
Of course I am much more than a label. This memory surfaced 9 months ago. It is actually at the core of what happened to me. It is something I identify with right now.
I WAS an experiment and I live with THE EFFECT of that today. The effect is transitory.
My other concern is besides the obvious pain- which I can't begin to wrap my mind about,
You can't go there unless you've been there. And I don't expect anyone to even grasp the depth of pain I suffered. I shared it as only a reference point.
is the effect this has on your self esteem.
What? The perceived label or the abuse?
I'm bipolar and I don't define myself by it or feel the need to explain it- it just happens to be a part of who I am. don't intend to sound critical at all or trite.
Comparing your bipolar to my situation is incongruous. The effects of Bipolar will remain with you for life. My memory's effect, on the other hand, is fugacious.
I didn't explain my abuse either! You'll have to read that in my books!
Again, the information shared was a reference point.
