It was worse than I thought!
Only now can I see with the medication just how bad my depression was. It was really, really, really bad. I am now suffering through the aftermath of all those symptoms, many of them physical. I have physical exhaustion. For 4 days I could do nothing more than lie around in bed. For two of those days I only got out of bed to go to the doctor, eat and go to the bathroom. I am still physically exhausted and spend the better part of each day horizontal. I am back to exercise and taking it easy and one day at a time.
I had to cancel my t appointment because I was too exhausted to drive my car. When I called him up he was shocked that I was so depressed. He said he didn't know. That makes two of us.
My major symptoms were physical not mental/emotional as in previous depressions. That threw me off completely until I visited a web site called depressionhurts.com. That is when I had my eye opening understanding that I was indeed depressed and had been that way for quite some time. My major symptoms were lower back ache, upper back ache, shoulders aching, neck pains and headaches. Normally I don't get any aches and pains so I thought it was stress and disregarded the symptoms. However those coupled with an increasing sleeplessness and a depressed appetite
ARE typical signs of depression.
My only emotional symptom was sadness or so I thought. Once on the medication I realized I felt more than sadness. I would say that number one would be a mental state that was off kelter. There is no better way to describe it. I was making decisions that were not sound.
