Author Topic: Bizzarro World  (Read 1382 times)

steve

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Bizzarro World
« on: February 26, 2006, 06:22:33 PM »
Hello all:

It is me, Steve, here to talk about Ndad. I know what is right and what is wrong in this development, but I just need to get it off my chest and have some feedback.

We are at a family gathering and my parents and uncle will be heading out of town for a funeral tomorrow. My aunt will be left behind to manage the business. As my aunt is leaving my father says to her that maybe Steve can come by to give her a hand. That was the end of that conversation until I could find him alone.

When we are alone I say to him, don't offer my services to other people without asking me first. He then says, why, whats the big deal, it is only family. I then say to him, that the problem is that he sees me as his possession and he should not do that because it shows a lack of respect for me. All he could then say is, what, you expect me to say please next time, in a condescending voice. I just walked away in disbelief.

The only good thing to come out of this is that I declared that from this point on, I will no longer be his doormat. I spoke about this to my mother so that she will understand that some tension will develop. But the real point is, that I can still not believe that this person has absolutely no respect for me as a person. I am 42 years old and have achieved things that he could only dream of. But still, he continues to squish me like a bug.

Anyways, I will end here and await some feedback.

Steve

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Re: Bizzarro World
« Reply #1 on: February 26, 2006, 06:51:24 PM »
Hi Steve,

You did everything right.  You were respectful and honest and stood up for yourself.  You have even warned your mom about what is to come with your new resolution.  It is never going to feel good to be disrespected.  But you handled it so well, even though provoked.  Even if you had lost your cool, still you stood up for yourself.  You respect yourself.  Very important.

Respect is one of my own sticking points as well.  I have often felt very angry or shocked when someone disrespects me.  When I discover that someone doesn't respect me, my opinion of that person goes way down.  I don't even want to try to get along with those people.  I guess I don't feel safe with them--if they don't respect me, what is to stop them from making my life even more difficult?

PP
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Re: Bizzarro World
« Reply #2 on: February 26, 2006, 09:14:48 PM »
Steve,
I'm very big on the whole respect issue also.  I feel it is the most important criteria for a successful relationship--be it between lovers, friends, family or co-workers.  I was never able to love or respect my father.  Those should be things that come naturally between a parent and child, but they also need to be earned and he never did. 

Good for you to start respecting yourself enough to expect from those around you.  I know from personal experience that you have a tough road ahead of you.  Best wishes.

Brigid

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Re: Bizzarro World
« Reply #3 on: February 28, 2006, 08:53:43 AM »
You Go Steve!

I am so vicariously proud for you!!  This is what it is all about.  Standing up and being counted!  Someone told me respect is not something you earn, it's something you command/demand.  And this is exactly how you do it, Steve.

Kudos!  Kudos!  Good for you, Steve!


Tiff

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Re: Bizzarro World
« Reply #4 on: February 28, 2006, 08:08:46 PM »
Nice work, Steve. We should all be watching a training film with that scene in it.
Boundaries are tough, for everyone. Good job.

steve

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Re: Bizzarro World
« Reply #5 on: March 01, 2006, 10:30:13 AM »
Thank you all for your input.

I know it will not be easy. I am constantly on guard with two goals in mind. First, I will not let him disrespect me anymore. I agree that respect is something that you earn. But this only exists with people who are sane. With these narcissists it appears obvious to me that tiff is correct and we need to demand it. So I will be any time he crosses my boundaries. The second thing that I will be on guard is how I interpret my interactions with him. I will start to build this wall of indifference. I realize that the entire problem is inside my head and waiting for him to change will just be a waste of time. So, no longer will I worry about how he feels. No longer will I give any of his comments any weight whatsoever. No longer will I interpret his body language or facial expressions with anything other than some random movement.

I hope this works, because I am very close to rock bottom. I will not let this pathetic individual destroy my life simply because he has an illness which he cannot control. No reason for both of us to suffer. He will always be what he is and I cannot help him with that. So, therefore I should not even try. Get on with it and be happy.

TTYAL,

Steve