Morning Laura
I think your post is a pretty good self-affirming statement. Lots of positive strong truths in there. Good!
I felt sad when I read:
When I don't post, nobody talks to me anyway,
Maybe you’ll feel less alone with this if I say, it’s the same for me too, and probably the same for all us.
When I don’t post, people don’t talk to me. I think that’s okay. If I’m not posting, I think it’s okay for folks to think I’m taking time out, or I want to be quiet for a while, or maybe I’m just too busy?
It’s reciprocal. If you post, others will. If you ask me how I am, I’ll ask you (if I’m not being selfish at that moment, or as long as I don’t have some major crisis that I want to talk to you about and bend your ear for an hour).
Lions and vultures. Are they really?
I have all the positive attention, accountability, etc, that I need from those closest to me.
I probably have this too but I still don’t understand myself as much as I’d like to. I still have problems relating to other people, I still have huge problems understanding other people and here, I feel like I’m learning how to get along with them without feeling like I’m either under attack or being too aggressive (my problems).
It kind of works like this for me; if I get interested in other people, their problems and ways of thinking, then I learn stuff about me.
Remember when you arrived here? I learned how to keep my mouth shut about my views and so on and instead listened to you. I learned that your beliefs are dear to you and I learned to respect that. I also learned that you can believe whatever you do, and that I am free to think differently without challenging you. I don’t have to challenge you. That was a valuable lesson for me!
Since I started being interested in other people, and how different they are to me, I can honestly say I’m never bored these days. Boredom is no more, and that’s great.
So how are your studies going? They sounded fascinating last you spoke about them.
