You are so kind. Thank you so much for getting me through this. I love you both.
I was looking for your peace quote when I remembered this old favourite, I know it by heart, Yeats:
When you are old and grey and full of sleep,
And nodding by the fire, take down this book,
And slowly read, and dream of the soft look
Your eyes had once, and of their shadows deep;
How many loved your moments of glad grace,
And loved your beauty with love false or true,
But one man loved the pilgrim Soul in you,
And loved the sorrows of your changing face;
And bending down beside the glowing bars,
Murmur, a little sadly, how Love fled
And paced upon the mountains overhead
And hid his face amid a crowd of stars.
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I think that's how my ex and I are- people who have loved the pilgrim soul in each other, we have certainly tested each other and clung to each other, and now I think we'll let go of each other.
At work today a colleague said 'no matter how much you know it's right there's a part of you hates it and doesn't want to let go'.
I've never done this before- moved through something and experienced all the emotions.
It's giving me a new strength.
My son said to me 'moan moan moan, mum!' but in a good-hearted way. I explained to him earlier that his dad and I are having emotional responses to the end of our marriage, I think he understands.
Time for a sleep! Goodnight, G_d bless.
