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those who saved us
« on: December 15, 2006, 08:02:25 AM »
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When they are older and telling their own children about their grandmother, they will be able to say that she stood in the storm, and when the wind did not blow her way -- and it surely has not -- she adjusted her sails.  Elizabeth Edwards 2010

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Re: those who saved us
« Reply #1 on: December 15, 2006, 09:19:51 AM »
I could read this over and over.  It brings me the peace I long for.  Thanks for sharing. - GS

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« Reply #2 on: December 15, 2006, 04:48:25 PM »
Hey Could,

I am quite new to this board, have spent most of my time here reading through posts in an effort to see if I really belong here. I found this today and just decided this would have to be my very first post. This one just made my heart smile. I may not have had such traumatic experiences that many people have had on here, I suppose for that I should be grateful. I have had my fair share of hurts and feelings of not measuring up to what has felt to be others expectations. I suppose, getting to all of that is best addressed on another thread; but I did want to say THANK YOU for sharing such a beautiful heart felt post with us. I have a grandmother that is much like this, I don't get the chance to spend as much time as I would like to with her, after reading this, it has made me realize just maybe I take her for granted to much. I decided to give her a call and just tell her now while I still can, how much I love her and thank her for all the love that she has always given me.

Forever Grateful for your willingness to share with us all!

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« Reply #3 on: December 15, 2006, 07:13:04 PM »
CB,

I can just imagine the kind of grandma YOU'RE going to be one day!!!!!!!!!!!!

That's what you'll be passing on, lasting through the generations.

Thank you for that beautiful, beautiful story.

Makes me eager for grandchildren myself.

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« Reply #4 on: December 15, 2006, 08:44:36 PM »
Hi Could be….  This is a great thread!   I loved hearing about your days on the farm with grandma and how you felt so loved.  I’m sorry you didn’t get to attend her funeral (((CB))).  I didn’t get to see my grandmother much as a young child.  I would talk to her on the phone and see her on holidays and for a week or two in the summer.  We lived 800 miles from her .  I always knew she loved me. I was the second of seven grandchildren, and the first granddaughter she had.  She made every dress I wore until I was in the 4th grade and stopped wearing dresses. 

I was hospitalized as a teenager and my doctor would not release me back to my parents.  Arrangements had been made for me to go to a foster home.  I met the couple I would be living with while in the hospital.  My grandmother found out and had a fit.   She wouldn’t hear of it.  They told her I was on drugs, that didn’t sway her.  They told her I was too difficult for her to handle.  She argued that she could handle me just fine.  She hounded my parents, called my doctor, and sent a one way plane ticket for me to come live with her.

When Mammaw took me in she was in the middle of a very happy retirement.  She had bridge and canasta parties, she was very active in her church, taught Sunday School, sang in the choir and had many friends and activities.  She made quilts and baked and had dinners for her friends.  When I think back to that time, I’m still amazed at her.  She wasn’t taking in well adjusted teenager.  I was messed up, and she knew it and insisted that she wanted me to live with her. 

She met me at the airport and took me home.  The next day she took me shopping for clothes and enrolled me in school.  She was so concerned about me.  Every time she would ask me questions, I would cry.  The words just wouldn’t come.

Not to long after I moved in with Mammaw, my mother called.  She told me she had given away my dog Nikki.  Nikki had been my best friend.  He was the only dog I had while growing up, and I had him for less than a year.  Mom had promised me she wouldn’t give him away.   I was devastated.  A few days later  Mammaw dropped me off at school and when I came home there was a Pomeranian at the house.  She said now I know this isn’t Nikki, but maybe you will grow to love her as much.  The thing that made such an impression on me was that I knew Mammaw didn’t like dogs.  She never had any animals in her house.  She would never mistreat an animal, she just wasn’t an animal lover.  She was right, I did grow to love that little dog just as much.  As time went on, I calmed down.  Mammaw had such faith in me and was so good to me.  She loved me and I knew it and I didn’t want to disappoint her.  I lived with her for several  years.  During that time she supported me fully.  She never received a dime of support for me from my parents and never complained about not receiving it.  We lived off of her retirement. 

She’s 94 years old now and has been living with me for a year and a half.  She came home today after being in a convalescent center for a few weeks for physical therapy.  She’s feeling better now than she was right after her fall.  She’s still weak, but glad to be home.  I will always be grateful for having a Mammaw that loves me so much.

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« Reply #5 on: December 15, 2006, 09:40:33 PM »
MS,

This is a breathtakingly wonderful story.
You and your Mammaw are so very lucky to have each other, and her love will always be with you.

Thank you so much for sharing this.

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« Reply #6 on: December 16, 2006, 01:12:29 AM »
I just didn't have a model of "normal", but I do remember experiences with animals, nature, volunteering with poor children, the grace of some very old people I'd encounter...

plus probably one of the biggest gifts I got was wide travel at a young age.

I realized even without realizing I realized that my family, my town, the south, even my country did not display The Only Way People Are.

I think that was planted in my brain like little bomb, and it went off years later when I first became a feminist and challenged every assumption in the book, and that led to challenging patriarchal religion, and that led to challenging the Norman Rockwell nuclear family, and then my own, and then Nism.

Hmm. Thanks for a good question, CB.

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« Reply #7 on: December 16, 2006, 01:37:06 AM »
O wow, what a precious story that you have shared. thank you!

For me, I would have to say that as a child I didn't have anywhere that was safe. but every now and again a safe person would come along. Some of them were teachers. Miss D was soft and sweet and she was my teacher in grade five. How I cried at the end of the year when I had to leave her class! Then in grade 9 I had another teacher who was someone who reached out and touched my life. She was Miss P. She was a Christian but O SO different to the norm. She worked out in the gym and did body building! But that woman had a way of looking straight through you when she looked into your eyes. And her message was always the same ... You are valuable. You are not a mistake. You are important. My faith in God that I have today is probably largely due to her because my family were not church-goers.

But in all honesty, I think the people who touched my life when I was younger, in a way that saved me from going down a really bad path, were children that I started working with at Sunday School as a teenager. Even though I prepared my lessons for them each week, at the end of the day they had taught me far more than I could ever teach them.

One little girl was such a bright and sweet child. But she was also extremely poor. She taught me that it doesn't matter if you are poor and everything in life is against you. What matters is that you have God, love, and that somewhere there is a family that you belong to.

Another child had a mild form of retardation. She taught me that no matter what, you can ALWAYS smile and laugh. She was such a happy child!

Another child was blind. She taught me that real sight is not what you see with your physical eyes but it is what you perceive in your heart.

I need to remember those old lessons. I think I lost sight of them along the way!

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« Reply #8 on: December 16, 2006, 05:34:47 PM »
It takes me awhile sometimes to remember the lights in my life because there were so many mean, mean people.  But there were people who were thoughtful of me and maybe they saved me and I didn't even realize it.  Because for some reason I always had hope, right up until recent years.

A couple of aunts who seemed to love me and would think to give me a special gift every once in awhile.  One aunt knitted a neat little animal for me which was used to hold a bottle of nail polish in.  A little purple poodle I think.  One aunt taught me how to knit and taught my sister how to crochet.  One aunt who always liked to hold my hand and enjoyed my company the few times I stayed there.  Her kids, my cousins, just loved me too.  They still love to tell stories of things I did or said when I was little.

I had a couple of best friends over the years whose parents also thought I was great.  One of them said she wished she could adopt me.  They welcomed me for a two week visit to Virginia which was where my best friend moved away to in 9th grade.  I never missed anybody like I missed her and so we both saved our money all year for me to buy a plane ticket and visit her.  It really happened, and her family welcomed me into their home during that entire visit.

A math teacher who thought I was great.

A guidance counselor who stopped the two former friends from harrassing me and stalking me during 9th grade once I finally alerted him to the problem.  It stopped that minute.  I don't know what he said to them but I will be forever grateful to him for that.  I think now he probably saved my life.

Once, when I got unjustly fired from a job, the rest of the employees got together and donated enough money to buy us a $60 gift certificate to the grocery store.  That was in 1982 when that covered about two weeks worth of groceries for us.  We stocked our freezer with that money.  But the gesture was even more meaningful to me.

A summer camp counselor who just loved me and requested to have me in her cabin the second summer and wrote letters back and forth for several years.

I'll have to think about more.  I've been so down lately and it is nice to think of the good things that happened.  Just as I haven't imagined the hurts, I also know the good things were real too.

Pennyplant
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« Reply #9 on: December 16, 2006, 11:50:01 PM »
PP,
What a parade of kindness and how beautifully you remember them all. I hope you still spend time with your cousins and have new friends in your life that you're building happy memories with. You deserve new happy memories. These recent years have been rough for you.

Please remember it's just a chapter, not the book.

CB,
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I just remembered that what really really saved me...was fiction. I devoured novels, about 5 a week. I was perpetually sleep deprived because in my desire to escape "waking" life I entered books so completely my parents used to say I made constant little "grunts" while I was reading...I was totally unaware of it.

Whatever tension the heroine or hero was going through (I read a lot of historial fiction) trumped my own. The other places, other times...I was immersed. Daytimes passed in a blur until I could escape back to my book.

Books saved me as much as people have.

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Hops
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« Reply #10 on: December 17, 2006, 03:45:05 AM »
please forgive me for jumping without introducing myself being brand new here. I have been reading the stories from you all about "those who saved us." I have to say it caused me to also reflect upon many who were put in my life to help me get through stages of life that were needed. One particular person who stands out and always will was a lady I had worked with. When I was just starting out in the career I'd chosen, we met casually but at that time I was pretty scared of allowing anyone "in." Because I wasnt making much money and single, I lived on little to nothing and at times did not have enough to buy myself any food. This lady who I had met at this job began to invite me to eat with her family or we would go out with friends of hers and she'd always have my meal paid for.

We developed a friendship of which to this day I credit her for so much. She allowed me to come out of my shell, and blossom as she became a mentor of sorts and she let me share my deepest pains and sorrows and even "crushes." You see I wasnt allowed to do that as a child at home, as I had to be a big sister to my brothers and sisters and look after them, and was told I was vain, conceited, and self centered much of the time and wasnt able to express myself without some consequences. I found growing up in an abusive environment with a dysfunctional family, but this precious friend was there to help me get past some of the issues surrounding the pain from my childhood. She never really asked questions but just simply allowed me the space to express without fear of rejection because of the ugliness of the past I was carrying around. She helped me see that I was "okay" and not a bad person, but saw the good and helped bring it out by simply encouraging me to climb higher to be what I was meant to be. I am thankful for her because even then I had no money to go to school and selflessly she pulled out some money from her savings to help me obtain the chance to do what I needed to for my start in the career I had chose. We've gone our seperate ways now and many years have gone since then, but to this day i do think of her and pray all is well in her life and ask God to bless her for what she had done for me.

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« Reply #11 on: December 17, 2006, 02:56:50 PM »
Free, welcome.
It's so good to hear you had a mentor when you needed her most.
What a giving person, what a wonderful memory she created.

Thanks for sharing this lovely story.
We never know what simple kindness can do.

Hopalong
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« Reply #12 on: December 17, 2006, 06:15:50 PM »
You are welcome hopalong, I had to give kudos where they are deserved, and this lady was like a second mom to me for years. I didnt say that before because I dont see her in that light anymore but see her as someone who God put in my life to help me get past issues surrounding my own family. So today I now look at her as part of the hand of God too. I also had a boss who I had gone to college with prior to me being employed with him asking me later if I wanted to come work for him. Before I knew it there I was doing a job I simply loved. Who'd a known right? Well one day i was brave enough to ask him, what in the world did you see in me to ask me to work for you? He said "I saw someone needing direction in their life and had an opportunity to give you that." I thought "Wow" how cool was that? Been doing this very job now for nearly 30 years. God knew what I needed.

ANyway I say all of that to say that people come into our lives for good reasons be they good ones or negative ones. I've seen both kind like majority here have. I've had to take on a perspective to heal from the hardships as part of my needing to grow.

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« Reply #13 on: December 17, 2006, 06:41:35 PM »
I'd like to add more "saviours". 

I do agree with Hops about the books.  I read all the time when I was growing up.  Often biographies.  Those people from the past became heroes to me.  They gave me some ideals to aim for.  And places to escape to.

I have a good friend, 30 years older than me in years, but younger than me inside.  She keeps me in her thoughts constantly.  She is often a practical person who can bring me back to earth when I'm worrying too much.  She is someone who grew up during the depression and WWII but never became bitter.  Just a happy person who has not had it easy but still is just such a fine person.  She has been a good influence on me and had a positive effect on my life.

My kids.  There have been times when I might have just given up if not for them.

My husband.  We are fighting today, but he is the person who understands me best.  I know this and wish I could do better by him.  Sometimes life is just too overwhelming.  For each of us.  I think if he gave up on me, then I'd be pretty much alone.  He probably believes the same about himself.  Well, I know he thinks that.  We sort of hold each other up when we can.

There's more, but I'd also like to read more about some of the people who saved others here.

PP
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