THank you all so much for your well wishes. Yes there is life after Ns and those of you who are in the depths of despair, this is where I was a year ago. Afraid to go, afraid to stay, feeling powerless, abused, frightened of everything, lost......... I could go on and on. But I saved myself and have achieved so much over the past year.
Can I boast?????
Since December I have
Gone to India.. a life long dream but was too scared to go before
Taken part in a half marathon........ last time I ran I was 12
Had a wonderful party in my house
Applied for a Masters and got one of 15 places!! WHEEEEEEEEEEE
Made a collection of paintings
REconnected with old friends
Made some wonderful new friends
Discovered I am worth more than an abusive relationship.
It was not easy, there were very tough times when I would post here twenty times a day but I got through all of that and I am here at a place of new beginning, feeling strong and positive for the future. Those of you still with Ns, suffering post N, please take heart.
I have my bad times still but mostly they are diminishing.
My Masters is in Conflict Transformation............ interesting that I choose this subject. My experience as a child and also with XN was there was no resolution or transformation and I believe with all my heart it is possible if you are dealing with people who have a desire to find resolution.
Will keep you guys posted.
I AM HAPPY TO TAKE CREDIT FOR MOVING ON BUT I COULD NOT HAVE DONE IT WITHOUT MY FRIENDS ON THIS BOARD. FROM THE BOTTOM OF MY HEART I THANK YOU FOR YOUR SUPPORT, CARE, UNDERSTANDING, CHALLENGES AND FUN.
This sounds a bit like a going away speech but it ain't just want to acknowledge and appreciate those who held me through the nightmare.
With love,
axa
